Have you ever been sitting someplace silent, then out of nowhere just start laughing really hard because something really funny popped in your head. That's been happening to me pretty often lately. I remember i was sitting at work a couple weeks ago and I just started dying laughing. I was thinking about the time that I was telling Jade about D Bass and she started mocking me in the dumbest voice. And it was absolutely hilarious.. (You had to have been there and heard her). Truth is.. even though our relationship was often times going terribly wrong, there were many great moments.
A day that ill never forget was actually the last great moment that we shared together. It was when we were at my house and we were talking about Thomas.I actually dont remember the whole conversation, I just remember us coming to the conclusion that he was a "little bitch", thats all that matters, lol.
Ive also come to the conclusion that i was a big factor in all the bad that happened. (Jade had her fair share of course) But looking back, I was tweaking. the stuff I use to do and say was off the wall to say the least. Like i remember several times, acting like I was mad, but I wasnt really upset at all, then id actually start getting angry then I'd stop and wonder "why am I mad again", and I would have no idea. lol. Or when Jade would think that I was upset when I wasnt, then all of a sudden I would actually be upset and again.. I had no idea why. Man ,you have to love high school relationships.
You know, I was looking at all my old facebook messages the other day. and I cant across ours. The conversations were so weird but we'd still talk for hours. While I was reading them, i could see her and I in my head actually having this conversation. I could see little me, and little her standing there talking. I heard her voice, I saw her facial expressions, it was so nostalgic. And i absolutely loved it. It was actually a moment when it sent chills down my spine.
Now dont get me wrong,the feelings I had for jade are long one, and I wish her and hers well. I know we'll never be together again, or even have teh same relationship that we did, and im cool with that. However, i have come to the conclusion that ill probably see her several times again before I die, because its obviously unavoidable, and im ok with that too.
I actually have more to say but I have a meeting in an hour, so i probably should start getting dressed. But there wil be a follow up post. I have more stories to tell. lol
