So cliche

So people always make it seem like you HAVE to dress up in bussiness attire when youre in a professional situation. BUt i disagree. Ive met alot of professinoals over the past month, IM talking some real heavy hitters. And I was not once wearing a shirt and tie... Its not really what youre wearing that matters, its how you carry yourself, and what you say.. For example, when I met Sheila Johnson, (co founder of B.E.T, she thought I was handsome,lol, had to throw that in there), But when I met her, i was wearing some camo shorts, a bbc t shirt, and some jordans.. BUt im sure she didn tthink less of me becasue I wasnt dressed business casual, which was what was requested. Or like today when I met Rose and Mr. thomas, I was wearing some khaki colored jeans, a grey sweater,and some converse all stars.. Again.. pretty casual, and I know for a fact, that he didn tthink I was any less of a genius becasue i was wearing that... I say.. do you.. and forget about what everone else says!

Expect great things.....

This was a great day.... For 3 reasons.. I woke up this morning. I talked to the girl ive been staring at in psych for the past couple weeks. And i made 2 very important contacts. the day just got better and better and BETTER! Let me tell you about it...

So it all really starts while im sitting in Psych... im bored out my mind, and im looking at the back of this girls head, on some creeper type stuff. So like i said im sitting in class bored.. but I end up getting a text from Wayne, telling me to come to his office. And hurry up. He said.. im setting you up to be in the right place at the right time, and all you have to do is show up. So alright, Im thinking its Yosohara. Her father owns yehia, and ... she's amazing(by far the baddest girl ive seen in my life, and shes only 18, score! But shes a muslim..Fail!)... Anywho, I pack up my stuff, and I leave. But as im leaving out the door, and I hear "thanks", sarcasticly, and I see that I let that heavy door close on this little fine asian girl(the one whos head i was staring at). So obviously i run back and help her with the door, and say "Im so sorry, i didnt know anyone was behind me". She was like "its ok, im surprised the whole class wasnt running out of there"...I reply.. O you were being bored to death too?.(then the conversation continues).Hell yeah! Im about to stop coming to this class, the powerpoints are online anyway. "Well if youre bored and im bored, we may as well be bored in class together". You dont even know me... "Its cool, we'll get to know each other. I really have to be somewhere right now, but ill see you in class tuesday" (then i give her that half smile thing I do, then we go our seperate ways)... Lol, ive become very opportunistic since school has started... But of course for me.. that was a great moment... But it gets better..

I start power walking to waynes office, hoping that Yosohara doesnt leave before I get there. So i get upstairs, sign in, knock on his door, peak my head in... I see wayne.. and two other guys sitting there. waynes like "O whats up David, what a coincidence. Guys this is that young guru I was telling you about.".. So i walk in. Wayne gets up to introduce me, and i get a better look at the 2 guys. One is a guy a couple inches taller than me, known all around chicago, especially if you have followed high school basketball,or basketball period, within the past 4 years.. it was none other than Chicago Bulls point guard Derrick Rose, then the smaller man beside him is one of the top NBA agents, Henry Thomas.(he is the agent to allstars like Dwyane Wadem Chris Bosh, Devin Harris, Udonis Haslem, Ronnie Brewer, need I say more) So there arent any more seats so I sit on the desk. And as always Wayne starts to gas me up "Yeah, this guy is cold! He's young, but dont underestimate him, he knows what he's talking about, and he's been trading for a while. He had my guy from Morgan Stanley speaking very highly of him.".. So after he's done. Well we all know Derrick rose.. isnt the brightest bulb. So finance was going right over his head. But Mr thomas was curious, he start asking me questions and stuff. and i start telling him about how I got started, and what I did when the recesion hit to make so much money.. But i guess he thought I was lying or something, or wanted to verify what I was sayign by a professiona, so he gets some guy on the and has me tell him my strategy.. and when I was done, the guy on the phone was like "Damn! Henry who is this kid, i need to get him in here working for me".. So i guess he's satisfied now. And Mr. Thomas tells me how a couple of his players are looking for investment opportunities, where should they go?.. So of course I plug my company...Then I say "BUt since I cant legally manage anyone money right now, id go with ford all the way, I dont think you can lose".... So derrick says "well what about mcdonalds?" Wel mcdonalds is more of a defenseive stock. It doesnt really move drasticlly up or down. If you want a stock that works like a saving account, then go with McDonalds, but if youre looking fo r growth, and progression, and you want to make some money....Ford." So Henru gets a call or something so he's gotta go, so that convo is pretty much over.

So i mean, I didnt get a million dollars, and they arent about to invest in my company. But im pretty sure that when I get my licenses. I can hit up Mr. Thomas, and he will put me on with his players who wil invest in the company. Making contacts for the future. Expect great things.. I sure am...

It's Kind of a Funny Story - Official Trailer

This looks like its going to be a great movie. I have to see it.

Music can take you away..

Every moment should be occompanied by music.

O Darn....

Last week, I took my first 2 mid term and turned in my first college English essay. After my psych exam, I was pretty confident that I did well. I had this asian girl sitting in front of me(i know she studied), had a clear view of her scantron. Yes! Then I had my math mid term..I was late for the test, THEN i find out that I FORGOT my calculator in my room, and I couldnt run back to get it, and they spread us out in the lecture hall so we couldnt cheat... I was screwed.. But in english, thanks to Ms Banks Im doing great, Im writing 3-4 pages with ease. And i got a B the first time I turned it in, So the second time, should be nothing less than an A....But about those first 2 exams....

Well for my psych exam... I was probably too confident, or the girl in front of me, did no kind of studying... I got a 50% on my exam!! And for a whole week, I was stressed for my frst time about school! because of my math exam... So as always I didnt go to class. But my professor emails me. And the title of the email was "Last weeks exam".. Im like "dang, he's probably about to tell me how terrible I did on that exam, and advise that I start coming to class.".. I dont even read the email...But the little red light was irritating me so I just decided to open it up a little later... It says "Congratulations David, You scored a 98 on the exam, one of the highest scores in the class. I wanted to personally congratulate you for your excellent performance on an exam that many found difficult. And tell you to keep up the good work."

Hold on.. so... not only was I late for the test, and I didnt have my calculator, I did every last problem by hand. I still managed to get almost a perfect score... I was stressing for nothing.... Well let me go ahead and pat myself on the back for my stellar work. And i can go back to slacking in math. But i really do need to start studying in psych! Im really not doing stellar in that class...

Quote of the day

The play is over, and the curtain is about to fall. Before we part, a word about the graver teachings of the mountains. Still, at last, sad memory hovers round, and sometimes drifts across like floating mist, cutting off sunshine and chilling the remembrance of happier times. There have been joys too great to be describes in words, and there have been griefs upon which I have not dared to dwell; and with these in mind I say, climb if you will, but remember that courage and strength are naught without prudence, and that a momentary negligence may destroy the happiness of a lifetime. Do nothing in haste; look well to each step; and from the beginning think what may be the end.

Man.. that sucks.. I feel sorry for her.

You know, i woke up this morning and thought "Man i feel sorry for her".. Dancicah that is.. I mean, im good, luckily i got out of that in January. But Danicah is still in it, deep. and jade and Menelik are not going ot stop talking.. SO she has to sit there, in the midst of it all. And look both of them in the eye constantly... Wow..Then Jade always made me feel bad for not wanting to hang out with her! HA! Now i feel bad for forcing myself to do it. So when i was often times sitting around saying... "hmmm, i wonder what shes doing, we need to hang out" or "I really want to go kick it with the guys right now". Im mad that I WASNT doing those things... I was wasting my life away.. sitting around with her... Darn...

Back to the basics.... Lessons Learned.. Success Framework

1. Plan for Success

2. Take Calculated Risk

3. Recognize Opportunities

4. Overcome Obstacles

1. Hope is not strategy. Hoping for success. And having faith in your abilities is not merely enough. Its great and all. But you need a plan. Faith without works is dead.

2.To get in a position to achieve big goals. you must take calculated risk

3. Recognize opportunities! I can never stress this enough. I think some of the biggest mistakes ive made in my life were times when i didnt recognize opportunities and take advantage of them.

4. Embrace and overcome obstacles. Obstacles are almost as important as the plan. they make you stronger, wiser, and more capable.

I like it in the city...Not my city, but one similar.

Repost : Trey Songz- Cant be friends

So, i try not to repeat myself on here. But while listening to this song, i was just like "whoa"... The first time i posted it, i had a different interpretation, I had some one else in mind, I was basically, putting it out there, that me and my ex, cant be friends. for numerous reasons.... But now..I think ive got it right, i have a new interpretation, and this song has a totally different meaning to me now..... And it hits it right on the head.

Save your goodbye..

Dont change a thing...

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How Unfortunate... You really dont know how things will turn out....

So i decided to sit down and listen to Trey Songz's new album; Passion, Pain and Pleasure... Everytime I listen to trey songz, alot of thoughts start to run through my mind, and many past events always come to the forefront of my brain. I usually either think of one of two people... KiKi or Bridgette.... Im pretty sure that I think of KIKI because that was what we listened to on out first "date". A trey songz mix cd.. And this past year when we would hang out, you would demand that i play "sex room" at least 10 times before you got out the car, lol. Bridgette...I probably think of her because.. for one.. I recorded a video of her sitting on my bed, singing that song to me, lol.. Them also, its alot of things that Trey talks about that i can relate to... And towards the end of the album, the thoughts of Kiki kind of fade...And it leaves just.. Bridgette.. I couldnt even sleep.. I have to write this down. I have to get it out. Its 1:54 in chicago. And I have class in the morning. But im about to be real and honest right now. Im going to discuss the relationship that I had with Bridgette, our rise, our fall...The real story... Previously, parts of our realtionship were kept a secret, omitted from conversations. and wasnt even told to my closest friends.(except probably Brandon, I was with hijm so much, it was hard not to tell him stuff) But today.. right now...Thats all going ot change ....Are you ready? .....

Lets Go...

So i went to elementary school with Bridgette. We never really talked. We said hi and bye... She actually talked to my sister more than me. But she would always stare at me from across the lunch room, or from across the playground, but back then, i paid absolutely no attention to her. She was just.. another insignificant face in the crowd...

I left Ninos, and went to Kenwood, Maybe my Junior year, she transferred there. And while I was standing outside my night school gym class with Kevin, she walks up to me with like 3 of her friends, and said "Your name is David right?".. Yeah, "and you have a sister, dana right"... Yeah.."Do you remember me?".. I looked at kevin and just kind of chuckled, and said "No, who are you"(mean as hell,lol).. Then i guess she was kind of embarrassed, so she said never mind and walked away... But eventually i remembered, and i apoligized to her, I saw her like everyday when i was outside getting in my car, she was walking somewhere with her boyfriend. She would always look, and wave. And I had jade, so id give her the head nod, and keep on moving. She was still a nobody to me. But eventually she got some hair, and she was all of a sudden.. Bad.. Like im not sure if it was my junior or senior year, but I ran up to kevin one day and was like "remember that girl bridgette? She's so bad! Im disappointed in myself for treating her like that"... So She went from being a nobody, to just one of the better looking girls in the school. Congratulations...

So now lets fast forward up until i really start noticing her....

I know for a fact it was senior year. And Menelik and I were always together after school because we had that NFTE program. And while we were hanging around the school, we would see Bridgette like everyday strutting around Callaways office, Menelik would go out his way to give her a hug, and Id just chill back in the cut, and give her the head nod. I remember one day he was like "Man, im putting her on my list, im fucking her before this year is over". I was just like.. Thats a good add, shes bad. But still not really interested...

But then one day...(Maybe the week after the Sara incident)

Menelik and I are walking down the hall on my way to the car in the back, and we walk past Bridgette, Menelik says hey, I say hey, and she give me this same look she always gives me(like a half smile, raised eyebrow type thing)And i just say, "why do you always look at me like that?".. I dont look at you any kind of way. lol. "yeah alright"... So i actually turn around and watch her walk, and she walks into the bathroom, the I turn to menelik and say "Dang".. then I get a couple more steps further, and I hear, "David, I need to talk to you!".. I turn around and see who it is, then I say, "about what".. I just need to talk to you!... Im like alright... Then I get to the car and I start thinking,This was right after Sara was over my house, and theyre best friends, what if shes trying to talk to me about that! I turn to menelik and start thinking out loud.Im panicing.. Because at this time only 4 people know that Sara did what she did.. Me, Sara, danicah, and Menelik...So im like if she told Danicah, she probably told Bridgette too, man if this gets out im dead(mind you this is new david, trying to be faithful and stuff,then sara comes along and messes up my mojo! All night I was like praying that she didnt want to talk about Sara...Maybe my prayers came true...I get to school the next day, I see her alone at her locker after school, and I walk over there and say, So whatd you have to talk to me about? She says "o nothing, I was just wondering if you had a girlfriend". (now this had to be some kind of tactic that she had planned to find a reason to talk to me. I was with Jade for over year, it was not a secret at all. She could have asked any girl in that school, who my girlfriend was, and they would point out Jade. And im sure if she had talked to sara, she could have told her too.)
but I just say "Yeah, im with Jade"... At this time, Im relieved that she didnt mention sara, and we just get into a conversaton. But its about that time for me to go get my mom, and I just say got to go, then leave. But all that night.. I find myself, thinking about her...And it probably didnt help that Jade was in her little mode. So while I have no idea whats wrong with jade, honeslty, i didnt even care becasue for some reason. Bridgette is stuck on my brain.

So jsut so everyone is clear on the time frame.

January 1st I decide that im going to do right by Jade.

2 Weeks later, i slip up, and let Sara into my house. She gives me head. I really wanted to stop her, but.... She was really good...

Although the day after it happened I let her know that i am not going to do that to jade, and I advised that she should forget the whole episode, and act like it didnt happen. She didnt take that to likely. I guess she wasnt use to being rejected.

Two days after that incident,Friday- Jade and I spend the whole evening together just talking and laughing, and coming up with little inside jokes. A great time indeed.

Sunday, Jade starts acting weird, goign into one of her modes. WTF.

Monday- Bridgette "has to talk to me"

Tuesday- I have my first conversation with her.

Wednesday through Friday- We are low key spending alot of time in school together. Alot of subtle Flirting, One time she grabbed my dick, and Kevin saw it, I dont know how I covered for that. Sometime between these 3 days, Bridgette says in the middle of one of our conversatons "I really wish you didnt have a girlfriend".. I honestly didnt know how to respond... so... I didnt. I just watched her walk away, which was always a joy. I would love to watch her leave, but i hated to see her go...

Saturday- Jade and I break up. January 19th ( everything is cool, its like nothing ever changed)

Monday- I finally find a reason to get her number (for some reason, I dont like just asking for peoples number, I like to have a clever reason why I need it)

Monda and Tuesday was the first two days we talked on the phone.. We talked for like 3 hours each night. About, who knows what. Actually I remember one of those days she wanted to match.. And we did, luckily nobody noticed. We wore brown and blue. lol.

Wednesday- the bug is out, people are talking, Jade finds out..Damage control now active for the rest of the week.

Now we;ve been talking for maybe 2 weeks and things seem to be moving really fast. I think I meet her mother that following monday, and i bring her to my church. And its the first day I take her home... I stop in front of her house, and I say "bye" then she says.. "youre not going ot walk me to the porch, you dont have to if you dont want to" ,lol.. I always hated when people say that... But i was really delighted to do so, and I did.. It was cold, and she was all bundled up...Black coat, pink and grey scarf.. we stood just standing, staring at each other..Awkward.. (what now).. I just give her a hug, and go about my marry way... then she yells "call me!", ill smile and say ok. ..The next day is when I take her home again, and this is also the day of our first kiss.(yeah, I know i said before that we had never kissed but, come on guys...) Again,, i walk her to the porch, we're staring at each other again. smiling.. then we hug.. and while shes hugging me, she looks up at me, i look down at her.. and she has that "please kiss me" look on her face, and.... I did. One little peck... right on her lips... she smiles, then touches her lips and says "your lips are really soft".... then we go our seperate ways... the next day is the first day of finals, I take her home again.. and were back on the porch, we kiss again.. this time, i thought we would take it up a notch and throw a little tongue in there...NOT! lol, she stops and smiles, and says not yet, lol. Thats cool, we give our last peck. And go about our way.

That night we talk about it, and she was like.. "I have to do something after school, and I dont want to go all the way home, so can i come over after my finals.. Im like.. Sure why not...Then I think during her lunch, we were standing by the back door (while i was supposed to be taking my law final), and she kisses me again.. Im thinking hey maybe ill go for that next level again... Tried... failed... She stops and says my name in that voice she always used( I loved when she said my name, I remember when we would talk in the morning before school, Id make her say it like 10 times before we said anything else,lol). But after she shut down my attempt, she siad "No david, i dont want to it here, but... maybe later, when I come over".. Im like ok.. After school comes, we hop in the car, and head to my house.. I know her favorite movie is love and basketball so i pop that in. Although, we end up just turning it off, and start talking... So im laying on top of her, and we're just chatting while she's rubbing by head.. Then I hop uo and start playing basketball. And get the idea to do it "love and basketball" style.. "You score I strip, I score, you strip" She was cool with those rules.. So, I play on that rim all day, obviously, I was good....Off comes the jacket.... then those boots... then that shirt.. then those jeans... So I get her half naked before we stop... this Mental image will never be erased from my memory.. She was wearing some red lace boy shorts, with a matching red lace bra... this girls body was amazing WITH clothes on, imagine her WITHOUT clothes on!. So i lay her on the bed, and we get to kissing. Finally got what i wanted, she sort of shoved it down my throat though, a little less than pleasnt.. but we roll over and i start kissing her neck, and as my hands are gripping those boy shorts about to pull the down, I turn around and look at the cable box.. it reads 5:03.. NOOOOO.... We have to stop, now ill do stuff with girls, but i really dont have sex with them. But if you would have seen this girl CLOTHED.. you would understand why i kind of broke down while she was half naked. And i didnt want to let the opportunity pass me by, but.. I had to go get my mom, and take Bridgette to her aunts..So i stop, shes goes from breathing all hard to.. "why are you stopping?", We gotta go, so she wasn't too happy about that, but she went ahead and threw back on her clothes. and before she let, she let me a little present on my neck (f her for that. She was on my neck for like 10 seconds, that mark was there for like a week!)But actually of all the times she came over my house, that was like the only time we were on that. The other times we were just chilin, enjoying each other. Sitting back, watching tv, talking, taking pictures, making movies... Having fun.. No intimate touching though lol.

I dont know what it is though.. Everytime I took her home, adn we stood on that porch and kissed. It felt like the first time every time. Like.. that chill you feel.. I felt it everytime... Its like.. I think that why i still like her.... I wasnt satisfied by the way we ended. I have so many unanswered questions. Im curious.. Did she get me too? I want to know, was she serious when she said all the things she said...I dont think ive ever mentioned it before, but this girl told me that she loved me.. or told my pillow .. but it was still towards me, lol. and like.. she said so many things to me.... And when i looked in her eyes i saw so much sincerity.. And this girl wasnt a good liar... Or maybe she was. But i know i caught her in many lies. But i want to know.. is she totally full of shit or just about 75%?

Like, I spent sooo much time with her.. When she was sick, i was laying under that blanket with her making sure she was alright. When she cried.. i was always standing there with open arms ready to wipe her tears away and assure her that it'll be ok. It eventually got to the point where Destini was like... "Dave, let her fall, let her cry, let her feel something, its like whenever anything goes wrong, 'Super David' swooshes in to save the day"... That was true, and i kind of backed off, but that was sort of when things started going sour anyway.

I remember one day, it was snowing, and Bridgette and I were on our way to my house again, she thought it would be cool to throw a snowball at be, and we get into this one on one snowball fight in the parking lot, until I just go over and grab her, and we basically just stand there by the car face to face looking at eachother.. then Briana and Mellissa come out. and say.. "hmmmm", lol.. we let each other go and i just put bridgette in the car and drive away. But the next day when I saw, briana she said " you and bridgette are so cute together... She always looks so happy when youre around, I bet she was exactly what you look for in a girl, really pretty, light skinned, with long hair. I actually feel bad telling you this because of Jade, but i have to be serious. You and jade only looked nice together because it had just been that way for so long... But you and bridgette just genuinely look perfect for each other, picture perfect".. LOl, briana always ended her statements with something stupid like that "picture perfect".. lol.. But idk.. I kind of agree with her.. I dont think jade and I were really right for each other... We should have just been friends...And me and bridgette.. idk, there was always something wrong with the pictures that jade and I took together, but when B and I took pictures, it was different.. It could have been the worst picture in the world, but there was still always something right about it... Still something that made me smile...


Its 4am...I feel like I have so much to say.. and im honestly not tired because I know it needs to be said.. But im going to go to sleep.. Sleep on all i just wrote... Maybe add another post to finish up... But.. for now.. so long....

Ive been honest.....Lets be real...Part 1

Ive been poor.. Ive been Comfortable..Ive been broke... And ive been financially comfortable all over again. People always say that money cant buy happiness. But ive always been happier when there were money in my accounts....I think im about to talk about a subject that i never discuss....Money..Mine..

I mean, i grew up in a normal middle class family. I went to private school> My parents drove nice middle class cars. And i lived in a nice middle class home in Chatham. But after the divorce... that all changed... good bye to my house, good bye to the nice cars, goodbye to my happy neighborhood. Hello to public schools, average cars, old apartment. The works...

That was my life.. for a few years.. Then somehow... I had a flash of genius..I got into the entrepreneurial spirit. A babysitting company was born... All of a sudden.. I had money all on my own. I didnt even know what to do with it. But to take it to school, and buy all my friends candy, or ice cream... then A year in, I had 10 girls working for me, and the company got a name. "Little Miracle Child Care Agency".. By the time the company fell, I had... ALOT of money, and alot of knowledge on a lot of things.

I was....Comforable... very comfortable.. I was going to buy a car and hire a professional driver. One of those times when i had the urge to spend alot money on stuff i didnt need. Luckily, I didnt....

But i did start buying stocks. I took my mothers 100 dollars. And added my own 400 to it, and opened a securities account. I figured that trading stocks was how you became a millionaire.. Back then that was all i cared about. Making lots of money. My primary goal. Unfortunately.. I wasnt very good at trading stocks at first. I would put in 500 bucks... then id lose 500 bucks.. Id lose 1000 bucks.. then id probably lose 2k.. I got use to losing money, but i had to learn how to do it somehow.

Eventually i got the hang of it though. I was doing it. I was doing it well. I had put my whole life savings into my securites accounts. And it was growing.

Sophmore year of high school, I sold 15k worth of stocks. And start buying clothes. and shoes.. and anything else I wanted. I said that I was doing it for myself. But i really did because i wanted to be fly like my big bro, lol. I wanted the nice clothes, and the clean Jordans...

15k gone... In about a year and a half.. on stuff i dont even where anymore.. some stuff ive never worn more than once. Some stuff ive never worn.. A big waste of money. But hey... That was one of the times i had the urge to spend large sums of money... and I actually did it... lol.

I had spent 15k, and the markets were dipping. I didnt know what to do. But while everyone was in a panic,, losing all their saving, i figured out a way to make mine grow like never before... I used common sense and figured that if I shorted the market, there was no real science to it... All of a sudden I was back.. I was winning.. and I was comfortable... Never looked back. Im really good at it. Ive done it for other people. I decided that its what i want to do for a living.

I mean, dont get me wrong.. even though there have been days where ive made 70k in a day, there are also days when ive lost 90k in a week. So yeah im pretty comfy, if i wanted i could sell a few shares of stocks, and go buy a new mercedes in cash.. But i dont... I just tell myself that i have no money. Its the mindset that i keep, and it works for me.

I mean dont get me wrong,there are times when i look into my wallet and see dust. Or l log onto my bank account and i see 29 cent. Just becasue i have 6 figures worth of stocks doens mean that i have 6 figures in my account. Stocks are really just.. numbers.. until their sold... I mean nowadays i like to keep at least a thousand in my account but thats nowadays... Then the divident checks come rolling in, and I have a couple hundred to spend.. maybe buy a pair of shoes, or something. But.. I try to never let my account get lower than a thousand.. I start to feel broke again...

But i dont care what anyone says.. Im always happier when there is money in my liquid accounts...

Thoughts on college by Josh Kaufman

“I have nothing against college education per se – I went to college, and it was a good experience. (I was able to finance my degree completely via scholarships.) What really irks me is that so many people mindlessly assume that sitting in a classroom for 4+ years and racking up tens (or hundreds) of thousands of dollars of debt = getting a useful education, and that it’s always a good investment. It isn’t, and it’s not.”
— Josh Kaufman

My thoughts on college are coming soon..

Alright she put me on..

So when you want to know what someone listens to. You check their "25 most played" in their iPhone. And this song was in hers. I played it.. And oddly enough, i liked it.. haha

"So is he trying to be the next Drake or something?"

So im over here trying to put this girl on some good music, and im talking to her about basically what we did for fun in Chicago. So im goign through my phone and i see this one.. "o this is perfect, this basically says exactly how we spent our time!"..

She sits back and listens to like the first 30 seconds then sits up and says "so is he trying to be the next drake or something, he's good if you focus on the lyrics. But theres not room for more than one drake."

Ironically, Vic does not think he sounds like drake.. No matter how many times people tell him that. its a gift and a curse.

90210!!

This was th perfect song to go along with my last post...

She just want to be known!

So the girl i was talking about in the last post, made me realize that not only do we have a bunch of hoes on campus. We have groupies too! You know the girls that are at all the parties,Hanging on to all the dude that i guess "look like they run something".

They just want to be know, be out there. fame seeking.... But little do they know.. youre not going to get anywhere doing that.

It was me, the girl, and a few upperclassmen dudes. And we were saying how, theyre really ,making a bad name for themselves as freshmen, and as a girl period. Dont do that, the girls that do that.. are the girls that get talked about in these circles,and then gets passed around the circle.. You dont want to be one of those girls. You would much rather be that girl thats sitting with all the guys, that talk about the other girls. Then you ge cool points, and youre less likely to get messed with by the dogs on campus because.. They already know not to waste their time. dont be a groupie...

So eeveryone thought it was ok to come to college with boyfriends?

I pretty much meet somebody....everyday....But its this one girl. By far the coolest freshmen, that ive met. We met, because I flirt with a bunch of girls here. Its something to do. Its better to at least say something to th epeople you stare at, it makes it alot less awkward. But i had seen her on campus like the first week of school, and we made i contact, and i held it until she got past my shoulder. But i didnt look back. But i knew she did. Some random technique. Its like saying
"yeah I saw you but... you werent anything special", even if you were. But anywho, i did that. Hoping that id see her again, and "follow up".

Luckily i saw her again maybe the second week of school. And we start talking. I claimed that she was stalking me, and we got into this conversation. Something i learned over time was that pick up lines are useless, and awkward, there has to be a pick up conversation.

So anywho, we're talking talking.. she adds me on facebook, followed me on twitter, then finally after like an hour, i got her number. (one of my advisers made a bet that i couldnt get it, Dont test me!)

Anywho, We text for a couple days straight, then eventually she mentions that se has a boyfriend. Wait what?...So yeah i keep texting her... Then it comes up in a conversation how long theyve been together.... Since may... o thats easy, i can proabbly slide in there...keep texting her... eventually it comes out, theyve been talking since '07... Wait.. hold up, now this is dead.. Im wasting my time... She texts me, i stop replying.
(now we're at MID last week)
I run into her in the quad between classes, and I tried to do the "see someone you dont want to talk to., so you start pressing buttons on your phone, and act like you didnt see them" Yeah nice try dave.lol. She walks up to me, and ask why i havent been replying to her text. And i tried the "yeah my fault, ive been going to sleep early".. Nope that doesnt work either.. "really? Since when do you go to sleep at 7 o clock?..David, dont try to bullshit me".. lol.. Alright, now my morale is down, and i cant go out with a L, so i have to redeem myself, so atleast i dont stop talking to her while she has a bad taste in her mouth about me. So i invite her to get something to eat. She agrees... We go eat in the caf"free food! No money coming out of my pocket!) But anywho, we sit there for like 2 hours, just talking and laughing, and im making my little comments about every song that comes on mtvU(the only channel that plays in the caf) And im trying to explain to her that everything i say isnt sarcastic. I just have a "sarcastic accent", I dont know if that a real phrase, but it made her laugh. and it gave me a transition off of my sarcasm. So we get up, i take her to the bus.(I dont have to take any of these girls home either! this is way better than high school) But on my way walking home and when i got home. I realize that she is a super col girl. and I have two options. I can keep flirting with her, and possibly mess something up... or I can just accept the fact that she has a boyfriend. and just gain a cool female friend....


I gladly chose option 2. I keep everything friendly. She says something flirtatious, i reply with a nice friendly remark. You know that kills me....But it'll benefit me in the long run. So its cool, she has a bad roommate that she doesnt like, and a few bad friends. Sooo.. Yep.. this works, lol.And its always nice to have a female friend to talk to. About stuff. Get in the mind of a girl. or stuff like that! Again.... It works!

And its only the beginning...

Today was the start of it all. I was in the righ tplace at the right time. What some call the "nigger network". A millionaire financier was there talking to one of my mentors. I walked into the office, and when i got there aof course wayne start pumping me up telling him all the stuff ive doe. then the guy starts giving me this random quiz/interrogation about finance and stocks.Needless to say, i think i passed with flying colors. I even had him on his toes. And he already has been doing this for years.. At the end of the conversation he sat in front of me and said...

"Tell you what... If you ever start that fund...Ill give you 10 grand of my money to start off with. If i like what youve done. There will be more, consider me your newest and biggest client. Dont disappoint me"

Wo

Youve been on my mind...

So after some thought within the past couple weeks. I realized that ive only really liked a few girls. in order.
1. Jade
2. Bridgette
3. KiKi

I guess you can throw scar in there at number 4 just for the heck of it. even though i know i didn't really like her. I more so liked the idea of her. But either way, with any of them. They all had their own qualities that had me hooked. Scarlett had the best looks. Bridgette had the best body( beautiful face too, and a great personality sometimes). KiKi.. she was a catch. she had a pretty nice body, she was cute. and her personality was impeccable. I dont think i can really say anything bad about her. She had a litte attitude problem sometimes, but i didnt really have an issue taming that. And jade... well you were..the smartest. Im sure everyone has heard enough about jade, and bridgette, probably Scarlett too. But i havent really talked much about KiKi. And she's been on my mind alot lately, crazy thing is.. i havent had a chance to contact her yet. Ill do it later today. What better way to spark a flame than with a good morning text. But right now..

But right now, im going to talk abotu KIKi, tell you a little about her. We met at a business camp. And actually Kevin liked her. And i was supposed to be putting him on. But while im trying to put him on, he's being an asshole. and im being the nice guy. And she ends up falling for me. Kevin went around claiming that i stole his girl for weeks. But thats my dude. and we ended up gettign passed it, and i put him on with her cousin's friend instead. That worked.

I honestly cant say anything bad about her right now. Shes super cool. And forgiving. I think she finally forgave me for not going to prom with her. If i could turn back the hands of time, you know i would go with you. We were talking on and off for quite some time actually. One of our lives would always get busy, to the point where we couldnt really keep in contact. But then we'd text each other, and immediately, we're right back where we left off. I really loved the fact that you never expected me to pay for anything. You never spent a dime when you were with me. But no matter what, when we got out that car. you made sure you had your wallet. and i dont know how many times I told you to leave your wallet in the car. or "put your money away".But you would always try to pay. I swear i loved that about you. Ive met girls, and been with girls that would order something, then step back. Like Its my duty to pay for their crap. I mean, im going to do it. But dont expect me to! at least ACT like youre going to pay for it. Actually Bridgette brought her money everywhere too. That was one really independent girl. It was cute though.

But back to KiKi...

She was just cool, we had so many laughs together. I remember the first time we went out together. I guess you could consider it a date. We did dinner and a movie. But everything was so simple. It took almost nothing to please her. I asked what she wanted to eat. instead of saying some far out place. She would say the simplest things! like our first "date" we went to Baccis. Thats what she wanted... a $5 slice of pizza? Works for me! and she was a vegetarian so she barely ate anything anyway. I dont even remember what movie we saw though. idk, we would go to the movies at least once a week. And she was an early bird! just like me. So we would be at the movies at like 11am, and be like the only people in the theater, lol. She was also the first girl i would go to the movies with her, and not lay a hand on her. Before her, i had a habit of letting my hands wonder. She was.. a sign of me maturing i think. For example, i went to see the dark knight twice... to this day ive yet to see the dark knight, lol.

Back to kiki...

I remember when we went to that John Legend concert together. that was a good day. We had fun. I remmeber.. it started raining. And the ground was dirty. So my suede jordans were getting super muddy. I looked down. and you knew what i was looking at, you lifted up my chin and told me to look at you, and dont look down... needless to say.. I never looked down again. You made me forget about my shoes! No other girl to this day has been able to do that.

haha, this one just popped in my head. I remmeber you had some performance to do. We were together that night before. And you texted me the morning of, and said that you wanted to come over and see me. I was like cool. So its like 9 30. You call me, and tell me that you're ready. So i get up, come to your school. and you never kept me waiting. Whenever you say youll be ready, that when you were ready. But anywho... You to the car, and it was a grouop of guys. D.A and his friends.. And they were sayign stuff to you while you were walking down the street. So i get out the car ( not to say anything to them, but to help you with your bags), so i grab your bags. and they like "damn, kiki all wifed up".. We both just laugh, because we werent together... but when when we got to the car, you pull me for a hug, and whisper in my ear "lets give them something to look at, and be mad".. lol, i liked your humor.

I was always like we were in a relationship, but we werent. My mother wanted us to get together. If i like a girl, and i think it could go somewhere. I take her home. when my mother is there. and let her size the girl up. She was usually right about everyon ethat walked through the door. She only liek 2 girls that i brought home. Kiki and scarlett. She loves scarlett, i thnk she liked her more than she like me. And she liked how kiki and i connected. She said that jade was no good. but had to like me becasue she was the only girl to come over everyday and just sit in my room. (was she right?) and Bridgette was really pretty and obviously liked me.but it was something about her that didnt sit right with her, she felt like she had another motive to be with me. I'm still not satisfied with how her and i ended. And eventually im going to fix it. Just waiting for the right time.

Back to kiki(how many times have i said that)

I remember that after we got home, when i picked you up from that performance. You walked in the house, said hi to my mom. Came in my room, hopped on the bed. Leaned back on a pillow. I popped in a movie. And went to go to talk to my mom. I come back maybe 10 minutes later... and youre knocked out! But you looked so peaceful.. I couldnt wake you up. So i just sat beside you, and watched the movie. That was actually cool with me.. until my mom walked in at like 1. and was like, "dont you think she should be sleeping on her own bed".. Which is code for. Get up and take her home. You were the only girl out of the top 3 that i didnt mind coming with you to hang out with your friends. And i didnt mind bringing you to hang out with my friends. My friends liked you. i cant blame them. Come to think about it. Let me change the order of that list.

Unfortunately, jade has to stay at number 1 because she was my first love. But you get moved up to number 2. and Bridgette drops to 3. Scar not going to be on the list because, well it wouldn't be right.

But im definately going to text you kiki, in a few hours when i get back up.

Goodnight..

Hmm.. Well who says i cant start writing those post, this early in the morning.

So i literally cant sleep becasue i keep thinking about how i cant forget what i want to write in these post today. So... ebcasue if that. im about to write them, so I can go to sleep. And ive gtot Kanye West- runaway on repeat.

The Usual- Trey Songz ft. Drake

This song brings back some good memories. Ill talk about that tomorrow though. My weekend is over. An overall good day. Sleep time.

Actually i have a couple post for tomorrow. Standby.

Now watching- Stomp the yard

So im watching stomp the yard and a scene that stuck out to me. It was when he flashed back. and saw chris brown again.
"you know, the key to doing well in college, is to get a BUNCH of girls! and make then do your homework. then when they do you homework. You get A's!

She's bad!

So its this girl from my high school... gorgeous... to say the least. She's bad, and a flirt, and a great personality. I use to be very fond of her. Actgually her and i use to talk a couple years ago. I put that behind me. But shes really growing up her face is maturing and her body is developing. As suspected.. shes going to be badder than her sister. But thats my guys ex girlfriend.. So Im going to just look... I have morals.

Follow up.. Let me stop...

Im not going to sit here and let you believe that it was all a lie.. because that wouldnt be right. te new david is better than that. After i got some sleep, laughed at some fresh prince. Sat in the presence of true friendship. I really am good now. And i can stop the emotionally charged language.
So it wasnt all a lie. When i said what I said,when I said it. I meant it. I could front and say that i didnt mean any of it. But like i said.. that would be a lie. I did love you. Yeah its true that eventually i realized that we wouldnt last forever. But i also knew that because you were my first love. Id never stop loving you. I can supress the feelings enough for me not to think about you. But if i were ever laid eyes on you again. It would all come rushing back. So in fact, when i look at you. it does remind me of how much I loved you. That was true. But it is also true that at times i didnt thought that i could have been spending my time elsewhere. And i felt like i was phony kicking it because of that.

And when I was saying that i was building us a house, i was serious. At one time, there was nothing that i wantedd more was you, and to be with you for the rest of my life. Actually you had some good ideas about it.So it will still be built in the future. And im still putting that dance studio in it because i think taht its a cool addition.

I also need to find someone that is weird enough to want to proof read that book I was trying to write. Doubt youd be interested.

And i really didnt cheat that much. Overt his past 6 months when you asked about someone, i told you what happened. Probably a little sugar coated. but when i was say that i didnt do it, I didnt.

And despite common belief, I didnt stay with you to get my dick wet. Nor did i stick my dick in everything that opened.

Im done with this post. Believe what you want. I wont lose any sleep over it. Enjoy your life. Good luck. I mean that in the most sencerity.

"I hope you dont get known for nothing crazy, 'cause no man ever wants to hear those stories about his lady"

Youre one of the good guys

"Youre one of the good guys".. Something I hear often nowadays. They have one conversation with me and then say "youre such a good guy".. No im not faking, this is really me.. But you sure dont want to know the guy i use to be. And what it took for me to get to where I am today. So heres the story on that...
Well back int he day, i was lets say... a dog. A low down dog at that. Which caused me to hurt the only girl i ever loved.

So one day i woke up, and said "im going to stop all this madness, and im going to be the guy that she deserves".. So that lasted a week. The she went into this box.and the week after that. we ended uo breaking up.The fact of the matter was, i changed too late. I dont think she ever got to witness this new me. It seemed like ever since we broke up, instead of me being the new me, i was just tryign to cover up all the stuff i did while we were together.

Its crazy, how a person can go from being a liar, someone who "told them what they wanted to hear", to... Living it.. and standing behind my word. I try not to lie anymore. Although i had to lie to cover up the lies that i told her previously. even though I did lie alot it was some things that i couldnt fake. I could fake the enjoyment, i could fake the pleasure. But i couldn't fake the fact that i loved her.

She never got to experience the new me. From january 2010 to the day I die. But thats ok. Everyone else has. They love it. And im proud of who I am today.

"you dont smoke, you dont drink, you try not to lie, damn who are you!"

-The "who are you" girl that i mentioned in a earlier post.

She then followed up by saying, "any smart girl would be lucky as hell to get you", I cant say that I dont agree with you. How about that date you keep talking about. Tomorrow? My place?

Let me go ahead and text you now, because I know youre probably not going to read this.

I feel like taking over the world...

You need some good friends in your corner. My friends motivate to do amazing things. Do things that i couldn't do. Or wouldn't have tried to do otherwise.Im sitting in my apartment talking to my roommates and a few friends. This girl was like "i feel like eating".. then someone else said "i feel like shopping" then somebody else said.. "i feel like having sex" then it got to me and i paused... and said simply...

"I feel like taking over the world"

Since we're all being honest.

Im good. I wanted to hear it out of your mouth. You told me... Months later. But whos counting. But i won the bet. I rarely lose a bet when money is on the line anyway. It motivates me...But seriously... lets be honest for a minute...
This event is more like karma coming back to me. So i cant be mad. I dont really get mad anymore anyway. But i can say that Im disappointed. I knew it was happening in my head. But i expected more from both of them. It was dirty but i ve done something similar before too. I kissed this girl. Who was the ex girlfriend of a close friend. But After wards the next day.. Her and i sat in the car and looked eachother in the eye and just squashed it. And me and my guy are still cool to this day. Will i evr tell him. Maybe not. But luckily the feelings were so short lived, he didnt even suspect it. So.. theres karma.

But who believes in that crap. Not karma, just coincidence. 4 dirty people. who all did the same thing.

I mean, like i said, i wrote you off as one of my friends a long time ago. I knew that you weren't mine. I dont think friends do stuff like tis to other friends. Ahha! Youre a really close associate. I know that whenever we were together. I was phony kicking it. Honestly,after this past summer... I was hoping that i never had to see you again. I couldn't .So yeah, eventually when you wanted to hang out. I always wanted to say no, but i figured that you'd expect me to do that. So i tried to always say yes.... Although often times i felt like i should be doing other things. or being with other people. So i tried to go to sleep so i wouldnt have to look at you.

But i cant even front,menelik. you taught me alot of things. You put me on to alot of different things. Honestly, I always thought that i needed you to do the business plan competitions and compete. I mean, i knew that none of you all could write a business plan like me. But i never thought i was good at presenting them, and verbalizing my thoughts. But thanks to you forcing me to go to new york. I realized that im just as good.Probably better. You were a great motivational speaker. You can bullshit your ass off. Its crazy how a girl can believe the same bullshit from two different people. You were the first person to tell me that "any guy can get any girl, you just have to say thew right things", very true.. my game hasn't been the same since. Ive gone after girls i wouldn't have even considered before. No boundaries. Girls that i use to day dream about, are the same girls calling me everyday. You created the monster that kevin is today. You helped me understand that perception is reality. It confirmed what my Big brother dre told me before. Once you control what a person is thinking, you can make them do whatever you want. I dont even think that i want to drop you as a friend. Like... honestly, i shake my head at jade. But im laughing at the thought of you doing it. Thats crazy. Lets make a toast to the douche bags. make a toast to the assholes... But ill give everyone a tip. Runaway fast as you can.

So while we were on the phone, you said "ill skip over the CHAPTER about me" and you were serious! Girl youre not getting a whole chapter stop playing.I guess you could if the chapter was a page or two. No doubt you had an effect on my life. I mean, my name was associated with yours for years. But i never thought we would last forever. If i said it, it was in the moment. If i really sat down and thought about what i was saying. I wouldnt have said it.... Who am i telling.. like Menelik taught me.. sometimes you have to lie... By the end of this post. telling you the truth. I wont even really be mad anymore. The truth shall set me free. I am really mean though. people told me that, and i knew it, but i always denied it. But i need to let the soundtrack of my life play out. And let all the issues, thoughts and feelings come pouring out in this post. It honestly takes alot to effect or "hurt" me. But congrats. that confirmation really shook me.

Girls always think i care about their problems, probably anohter perception that became their reality. But when girls would tell me that their boyfriend was messing with a friend of theirs and i always though it was dumb to be mad at the guy versus your friend. But looking from the inside out. I understand. Like.. im honestly, not really mad at menelik. Hoenstly.. he probably had more of a long term impact on me than she did. He taught me lessons that im going to take to my grave. But you jade.. im really trying to figure out what impact you had on me that im going to take through my life. You were my first love. I could never forget that. So lucky for you , i will not forget about you. But you wont be in my dreams sorry im not even goign to lie and say you will. Too bad im not dirty enough to put all my learning checks online. lol. that'd be funny.

So im readign your text, a long message it was.. At the end you make a statement. It reminds me of this girl i met here at UIC. Her boyfriend keeps trying to get back with her. And shes not going. So he was like "youll never find anyone else like me!" adn she replies.. "Damn, i sure hope not".. lol. So you say that you hope i dont find anyone else like you and I say exactly what she says " Damn, i sure hope not"

Honestly i got played. Its only happened one other time. But that girl was GOOD. Her game was tight. i had met my match. And because she was so good. It was cool, and i accepted it. We are actually really good friends now. But when someone that is way inferior to my skills, plays me. I take it personally! You sat in my face on more than one occasion, you lied on my bed, ate my food,lol. I didnt even do that. even given the opportunity. Nope, still not even going to tell you which one of your friends,lol. Actually it another thing Menelik taught me. Controlling your penis. I was able to not pounce on this girl even though it was obvious i could have. Who would have known!

Also while reading your text i got to the spot where it says "i actually cried the second time we kissed"...But i think you meant something like this. "i actually cried the second time we kissed, but it got easier over time" lol.

I still love you.Crazy as it may sound. Ive been trying not to but its actually hard. Love can kick rocks.

"youll never really know how much i cared/care about you" lol.Really? Seriously? Thats some crap id pull out my ass when im up against a wall. But hey! you really dont have to lose me. You follow me on twitter. And you're my Facebook friend. And as you can see i still update my blog. But i hear that im really good at being phony, so anyway you contact me is fine.

Well its my off day. Cant spend the whole day blogging about you guys.

......To be continued....

Lets be real...... This is.. the soundtrack to my life....

In my head.. i know that was dirty..But it really hasnt hit me yet...

Today i got a phone call. It low key kind of dampered my day. Nothing really ruins my day these days. But i still cared enough about it, to write about it. Lets kust say.. it kind of shook me. It was random.. It was surprising... It was about something that i put to the back of my mind. because even I (mr non chalant) didnt want to have to deal with it...
So im sitting on the bed chatting on skype with a friend. Then i get a phone call... When i answer i ask whats going on,i thought it was odd that this person was calling me, seeing how they usually dont do so.The only times we call each other is when something serious is going on. And we want answers.. fasr. And not to mention that they were crying so i politely got off skype and focused my attention on the call.

I asked what was wrong again, and i was given some news that i didnt want to know. lol. It was good that i did know it, but i dont think that i really wanted to know. What these people did, was dirty... It was low. Actually some people that i wouldn't have expected, which is why it really shook me. I prepared for the worst already so i guess it didnt really surprise me. But it was still like.. Wow...

Its funny because i like to say that im done with you. But hearing stuff about you still can have an effect on my mood. Its crazy. .....But its really cool.

Not American Pie, But... it'll do..

Growing up, watching American Pie, i was always given the impression that... College was just like that! But being here for a couple weeks. I realized that i was a naive young child, and that move was extremely over exaggerated. I also gave it alittle thought and realized that UIC just isnt that school. Despite common belief, this is a really smart school full of a bunch of nerds. Although it was a breeze for me, alot of people really didnt get into this school. And we have a really diverse student body. And though some may not want to admit it, its really segregated. I mean, i pretty much associate with every race because girls come in all colors. (It amazing what you can say to people without even opening your mouth, just "giving a gift".)

But anywho, usually, the asians hang with the asians, black with black, white with the white, etc. If i really want a "american pie" college experience. I need to go to a whiter school. Washington University. Duke. U of Iowa. Notre Dame. But lets face it... UIC isnt American pie by a long shot. But it'll definitely do! Im enjoying myself. The perfect balance of class, Socializing, and personal time. Just what i need.

Life can always change, you have to adjust..

Stroling in the park..

The way you look should be a sin, youre my sensation..

Ye dropped a genuinely good song. He is dick riding himself...its just a great song. One of my favorites from Kanye. It was a good friday indeed.

A little bit...

I know you know...

Who am I?

So im talking to a guy that works at my school, about my summer, and my life at UIC.. then a girl gets up from a table across the room, and walks over to me and says "WHO ARE YOU?".. I was actually caught kind of off guard.. one.. im in a conversation, two...Why is this random girl asking me who i am?..three.. whats teh orgin of this question?...
It just so happens that the guy i was talking to actually knows who she is. and takes me off the spot for a minute with a joke, so i can recuperate.(its not everyday that people ask random questions like that) But when he was done. I stuck my hand out and told her my name... Who are you?..She tells me her name and we actually get into a conversation. She tells me that her and her friends were watching us. She noticed that i just so happened knew most of the people that walked in the room. I really dont think i know alot of people so it was probably just a coincidence that a bunch of people i know was easting at the same time in the same place, lol. She said that just demeanor said that i was "somebody".. i really didnt grasp that, or let it go to my head, but then the guy came back over and said "Yeah so this is that guy", she was like.. "o 'that guy', i should probably know 'that guy' , right? (that was an open opportunity for me to be 'that david') and i just said "yeah you should definitely know that guy"..( i mean, she was actually pretty cute, and i had seen her before on campus, i mean... how could i resist!).. So we exchanged numbers and she added me on facebook. I walked her to the bus stop, then i went back home to get ready for my meeting.

But... Who am i? Am i "That guy"? Who is "that guy"? He's been calling me that since orientation. But.. I never really paid much attention to it? I mean, its not the first time someone has associated me with fame or fortune. I tdoesnt happen often but people sometimes think that i do amzing things, or come from alot of money. Nope... Im just me, a regular guy from chicago. I guess i am kind of different from alot of the other guys in chicago. I dont drink or smoke. I guess i ve done things in my life that other people my age havent done or will ever do. but... Still... Just an average guy.. For now.. Just like wayne says..
"Do you know who this guy is?!!!..
(random person:.. No..
wayne: You will, lol

Lets see wayne, will the people ever know who "this guy" is?? IDK!! Looks like ive got work to do! Im logging into my bank account now... Time to transfer more money in to my scottrade account..You motivated me.. Risk more, win more, lets do it.. 32k in a day isnt enough anymore..(probably because i just lost 40k this week alone) Sleeping....