A few good words...

A little surgery..

So i think its time for this blog to go into a little surgery. I dont think that i have been completely satisfied since the green format. I have an idea about what i want for sure. Its just going to take the time.

Evil Prevails..

Many say that "evil prevails when good men fail to act"... But what they should have said was.. "Evil prevails"

The night before a friend of mine went back to new York,I was at her house and during a conversation, I said that i thought people were born evil... she immediately reminded me that I once said that I thought people were born good. Why the sudden change?

Growing up, nobody teaches a child to lie, but somehow we all have done it! We are born with the ability to lie and you have to be taught to do good. For example, we have to be taught to share.

In short, evil will always prevail. No matter how much good people do, they still cant make up for the evil. Some people arent taught to be good so they jsut sink back into their evil ways. The fact of the matter is, there are more evil people in the world than good. Good people are just simply out-numbered. And there is nothing you can do about it.

"People never get the flowers while they can still smell em"

Anybody who knows me, knows that Drake is my favorite artist. Period. And i am all for letting people you admire know, that you admire them... I know the tape is edited... But I still found it pretty funny.

Quote of the Day

Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.

-A Wise soul

One more chance

I always say.. "A man gets one chance to make a mistake, and one opportunity to make it right"... What if you were given one opportunity to go back and do something differently. I guess you could say, "one redo"... Where would you go? How much of your life would you have to redo to make up for what you did?

Now dont get me wrong,I dont regret the things ive done, or didnt do. But i just always wonder, how my life looks in this alternative universe. Its always in the back of my mind.

You Know?

Tuning-Bullets

I heard this song on a episode of "Weeds". I found myself randomly humming this song throughout the day.. I had to throw it on the blog so that everyone else can be humming this song too.

Follow: 67 facts

In july of 2010, I wrote a list of 67 facts about me. 6 months later, lets see what has changed. Lets do it again.
1. The Miami heat are finally performing up to expectations.

2. The Bulls are my favorite team again.

3. The Lakers are my second favorite.

4. Then the Heat, then the 76ers, then the Spurs.

5. I saw my ex girlfriend jade at least once a week over break. And i think i only said 3 words to her.( "hey jade", and "aight"lol)


6.Ive come to a realization over the past couple weeks.

7.She isnt to blame for what happened.

8. I dont know if i believe the story she told me given the current circumstances.

9. I believe that high school is actually 5 years long.

10. Its the regular 4 years. Then the first year of college.

11. I came to this realization this past summer.

12. Scarlett was the first person i told.

13. Because she was the only person with me when it came to me.

14. Ive never liked a girl longer than her.

15. We were talking about that the other day actually.

16. I told Brandon that it was pretty pathetic.

17. Some things never change.

18. Many things do.

19. Im going to be a motivational speaker.

20. Or a life coach

21. Ive already accepted that i cant be a therapist.

22. Ive already started writing the curriculum for the series of seminars i want to do.

23. I sometimes wish i was a tad less attractive to people.

24. I dont think im a bombshell, but something makes these girls flock.

25. That fact causes alot of conflicts sometimes.

26. Sometimes i wish i had med a girls friend before i met them.

27. I want to go back in time sooooo bad.

28. But i need to still know what i know now, and take it back with me.

29. I use have the rough blueprints to my house for the future.

30. It still includes a dance studio. With 2 walls of mirrors, and 2 walls of glass. If you cant imagine that... You're not meant to.

32. I use to say that "youre nobody until somebody kills you"

33. I have a little different opinion now.

34. Youre nobody until somebody loves you.

35. I remember the moment when i fell in love with hip hop.

36. I woke up to "Mo Money Mo Problems"

37. I believe the words that are in that song.

38. Many of these facets may evolve into post one day.

39. Nip/Tuck is a great series

40. I dint know that it had been on air for so long.

41. Since 2003 just in case you were wondering.

42. I enjoyed The Riches more though.

43. Stock trading has become my life.

44. By the end of the year. I want to have ,my trading license.

45. Im debating on if ill stay in school after i get it.

46. I didnt use to like wearing suits.

47. Nowadays i love what i feel when i close the button on a well fitting suit.

48. I dont trade stocks for the money.

49. I dont care about money.

50. Many people are surprised when i say that.

51. I would never work for a company that had no morals.

52. Philanthropy is important to me.

53. I honestly use to buy labels.

54. Now i just buy quality clothing.

55. I fell in love with H&M.

56. Their clothes sometimes lack quality and longevity but i like the style. An its cheap.

57. Im not really cheap anymore.

58. I finally understand that you get what you pay for.

59. Id be a hypocrite if I bought anymore Jordans.

60. Graphic tees are a waste of money.

61. Leaders 1354 stains people.

62. I wonder why big girls like me.

63. I guess big girls need love too.

64. I use to draw my mustache and goatee on my face.

65. I dont have to do that anymore, lol.

66. Im growing up right before my eyes.

67. I cant wait to watch my children grow up.

68. Im in no rush to have kids though.

69. I was never sure if my ex girlfriend was a virgin when we had sex.

70. It wouldnt have been the first thing she had lied to me about.

71. Im a little insensitive sometimes.

72. I feel like i should apoligize to her.

73. I wish there was a place in the world that was int he 70s all year around.

74. That where i want to be.

75. After i graduate/leave (whichever comes first) Im either going to live in New York or Atlanta.

76. I havent decided which one yet.

77. Maybe i'll live in both places.

78. I'd never get kicked out of school.

79. Or dropout because i had no other choice.

80. I have realize that it is possible to change and rule the world without back stabbing, lying and manipulation.

81. Those people who think differently will only get so far....

82. Id rather not have those people in my life.

83. Bad habits are too easy to pick up.

84. And too difficult to break.

85. Bad habits can be broken easily if you want it bad enough.

86. I dont think that people can change.

87. I think that you are who you are, an you can only act for so long.

88. I believe that i am finally ME.

89.I am still a good actor.

90. Some of the things that i thought were really lame years ago, i now have fallen in love with the same things.

91. For example, christmas sweaters.

92. I really wanted to wear one for this years christmas card picture. But the one that I liked wouldnt get to my house in time.

93. I need to get my biological clock working the way it use to. I need to be sleep at 12, and back awake at 6.

94. I feel like i have been wasting to many hours with my eyes closed.

95. I wonder how long Facebook can remain what it is.

96. I think its crazy that facebook is worth more than 5 of the largest airlines... Combined... Its worth twice as much as starbucks.

97. I would have been a millionaire by the end of 2008 if i had taken certain tips i was given.

98. I get irritated very quickly.

99. Im working on it.

100. Ive always believed that simplicity is key.

101. Will Smith and Johnny Depp are my favorite actors. Michale Douglas is my third.

102. I love oldies.

103. At night, thats what i always turn on to ease my mind.

104. I still want a puppy. 6 months ago i wanted a pitbull

105. Now I want family/friendly vs fierce.

106. It would be nice if i could get the best of both worlds.

107. IM thinking about wearing suits everyday for now on.

108. I think its a nice habit to pick up.

109. I hate to hurt peoples feelings.

110. Im sleepy so im done.

111. I wonder how long im going to be using this blog. Its a great place to....release...

Good Night.

Kids these Days-Darling Music Video

Theyre at it again...

Mid-Night conversation

Yesterday i was beat. After working on my portfolio for my internship i just passed out in my chair, then hopped on my bed for some rest. Maybe a couple hours later i got a text, asking me what i was doing and asked if i wanted to come out. I was about to send her off until she sent another text mentioning Scarlett.That changed my whole perspective, i decide to get up, get dressed, and go out....

After convincing everyone that they did not want to go to that party. We ended up at a friends house, just sitting around chilling. But then.... Everyone decided to go to sleep.. except Scarlett and I. It was about 2 o clock in the morning and we were just lying there on the couch together talking about everything. School, life, future, the past... Just like old times

Actually we spent alot of time talking about the past. We talked about the summer, we talked about bullshitting, we talked about what she thought "my type" was.In the midst of it all, I looked down at her and she had this really puzzled look on her face. Like she was in really deep thought.. So i asked "whats wrong?"... She first said nothing, but after some persuasion she finally started talking... She asked.. "why didnt you ever say anything?" Say anything about what?.. "You always said that you had a huge crush on me throughout 7th and 8th grade. Why didnt you ever say anything? She kind of caught me off guard. Wasnt expecting that at all. And honestly, i didnt have an answer for her. I really dont know why......But Somehow i got her to change the subject, and we just kept talking.. As I was dozing off..she whispered in my ear and said "Don't forget me".. And with the utmost sincerity , i looked her in the eyes and said "I won't"...And. before i knew it, it was 6 o clcok, and i was rushing to go meet my mother. So many things were discussed, i cant even put them all on here.

Its nights like this that ill always remember.. With the people that ill never forget.

One of the Greatest gifts of life....

In a recent conversation, i was talking to a friend,and the subject of relatoinships, and love came up. And i said..

"One of the greatest gifts of life is Love, and having those feelings reciprocated..."

It was one of those times when i said something, and i really had to stop and think. In the past id write it down in my sidekick or in my iphone. But since i now have neither. Ill share it here.

What you doin?... Bullshitting

Its true... People change.. Some people change.. others never change, and they just get worse. I was a supreme bullshitter. Its how i lived. I manipulated people, I learned everything i could about you, then attacked... I knew exactly where to hit to hurt people the most. I took advantage of people.

But when i grew up. (funny how i actually grew up over the span of a couple months,lol)It took years to corrupt me, but only a couple months for me to grow out of my bad habits. And im so glad that i did.

You see, when i grew up i realized that manipulation and snaking was not necessary to get the things you want out of people, or out of life as a whole. I realized that you can get everything you want, by being kind and sincere.

I learned that a bullshitter is only bullshitting himself in the end. I wanted to be a flawless bullshitter. I didnt want to be a lying bullshitter. My method was not to lie, but to instead... Manipulate the truth. But I discovered that you cant be a bullshitter without telling some lies along the way. In addition to lying to the people around me. I was lying to myself. The worst part about it all, is that i was believing the lies I told. I believed that i was doing some good. I believed that i was getting ahead somehow. But in reality, i was digging a hole, i was reversing everything my mentors ever taught me. And i brought others down with me. 2 people i most regret pulling in my holes were Bridgette and...(yes) Jade.

Ive apologized to Bridgette more times that i can count, but someone i have yet to apologize to with sincerity is Jade. She deserved the truth. Both of us did. But She didnt deserve it the way it was served. It was cruel.

Another thing i realized after I stopped bullshitting myself. was that I am now really at peace. Ive always been at peace (so I thought) Calm cool and collected. But it was a false peace. Just like the false stories i was telling these girls. But once i stopped lying to myself, i am finally at peace and can move to immeasurable heights.

Truth is, over the past couple years i havent done much of anything business wise. I mean, i still trade, and I have pretty good returns from that. But after Little Miracle i tried starting 3 businesses that have ultimately been flops. But since ive grown up even the business side of me has been on the up and up. Starting with New World over the summer. Now with Bean Jordan. Finance has always been my passion so when i stopped bullshitting myself with these wacky ideas that i knew couldnt/wouldnt work i was able to do what i really wanted to do. Im indeed grateful for all that has happened. And even more grateful that that i now see clearly.

Last but not least, I realized that i one day.. someone will see right through the lies and the bullshit. one day someone will look through it all, right into your soul... Then what?

Once a bullshitter.. Not always a bullshitter...

One day, someone will see right through you.. then what?

I was having a conversation this past weekend about the 48 Laws of Power. I mentioned that another friend of mine said that the 48 laws was a book about how to get ahead by snaking people. I agreed but still claimed it was a great book. BUt the person i was talking to disagreed. He justified the snaking by say it was "sharing". He claimed that the book taught you to "take on what others cant handle"
When he said that i thought about what my friend told me when i tried justifying the contents of the book. She said "sounds like a snake defending his bible". Indeed.. exactly what it was...I think that it take the realization of the lowest person you know, to realize that someone else has been false accused.