I died....

 This is the funniest thing I have seen/heard.. in a while. You have to love worldstarhiphop.

No paragraph breaks?

So i just realized that everything I have posted on this blog in the past week or two, wasnt being edited the way it was supposed to be. There were no paragraphs.. But now that i see that, Im working to fix it, and shouldn't be a problem going further.

Another great Disney series..

Over the past couple days I've become addicted to this show "Good Luck Charlie". A year or two ago i saw the previews for it, and i was less than impressed, but one day there was absolutely nothing else on, and i started watching this. It was oddly hilarious, and I thought that it was cool that the whole series is basically about Charlie... The toddler.

 The events of each episode become material for a video diary Teddy(big sister) is making for her younger sister. 

More Derrick Rose News..

A week after signing a 5 year extension with the my Chicago Bulls worth 94 million.. Mr. Rose is close to signing a 10 year deal with Addidas worth 250 million. If everything goes as planned.. Starting next season.. Derrick Rose will be making almost 45 million a year. He's come a long way from englewood...

The rules of the road...

A couple days ago i got a call from my little sister. The conversation went like this
 Her: OMG Guess what?!
 Me: What?
 Her: You said that it would happen by the end of my freshmen year, i waited all the way until my senior year!
Me: You lost your virginity.. I Hope it wasnt to the person I think it was... 

Creative Works

So my old laptop decided to start working again! Filled with memories.. I went through everything.. Pictures, videos, old high school papers.. everything.. But one folder that stood out to me the most was "Creative Works".. This was the folder where I put the things that I wrote while i was going through a creative moment. I had a few scenes of a screen play and 5 chapters of a book I was writing. I read over the two of them, laughed at the screenplay, it was suppossed to be a romantic comedy. And i was immediately drawn to the story of the book I was writing. But why didnt I finish?  

MJ without the ego..

Sometimes when you watch this man play, its hard not to think about the man that did it before him... Michael Jordan.. Derrick Rose hates being compared to Michael Jordan but sometimes you cant help but do it. The way he fearlessly drives to the rim and gets the ball in the hoop with the straightest face. He was the rookie of the year.. 2 time All Star..Youngest MVP in NBA history, he is global superstar.. But he doesnt wear his accomplishments on his sleeve, he just plays the game. 

Would you rather be loved or admired?

The other day I was asked "would you rather be love or admired? I thought about it for a minute... But i didnt even need that much time.... I already knew my answer... Id rather be loved.. hands down... Admiration is fine, but i dont think its that important.. And I think most people would agree with me. They want to be loved. Like i said, admiration is fine, but it wont keep you warm at night... (Unless you are a total narcissist)..Not only that, admiration can come and go...In the words of Drake..Love.. When its real, it doesnt fade..

Quote of the Day

"Sometimes you have to just get in the car and drive...."

My Dream Girl Follows Me

Today was alumni day at my high school. And i saw many old faces, some I was more happy to see than others. It actually reminded me of those family gatherings when you go to and you have to act like you like everyone you see. And every face you see, there are a millions thoughts going through your head at once about that one person, all the memories good or not. And often times you just find your self smiling on the outside, and saying "I really don't like you" in your head.. Hilarious stuff really... But about an hour after i left I found myself siting around the kitchen table at a friends house and talking about all that happened... But one thing that we both lingered on was this girl.. Everyone gave there comment about her then my buddy said.. "low key, thats like David's dream girl"... When he said it, i didn't think much of it but after a late night drive... It dawned on me.... He's kind of right.... She fits the profile... 

Fun Times

Have you ever been sitting someplace silent, then out of nowhere just start laughing really hard because something really funny popped in your head. That's been happening to me pretty often lately. I remember i was sitting at work a couple weeks ago and I just started dying laughing. I was thinking about the time that I was telling Jade about D Bass and she started mocking me in the dumbest voice. And it was absolutely hilarious.. (You had to have been there and heard her). Truth is.. even though our relationship was often times going terribly wrong, there were many great moments. A day that ill never forget was actually the last great moment that we shared together. It was when we were at my house and we were talking about Thomas.I actually dont remember the whole conversation, I just remember us coming to the conclusion that he was a "little bitch", thats all that matters, lol. Ive also come to the conclusion that i was a big factor in all the bad that happened. (Jade had her fair share of course) But looking back, I was tweaking. the stuff I use to do and say was off the wall to say the least. Like i remember several times, acting like I was mad, but I wasnt really upset at all, then id actually start getting angry then I'd stop and wonder "why am I mad again", and I would have no idea. lol. Or when Jade would think that I was upset when I wasnt, then all of a sudden I would actually be upset and again.. I had no idea why. Man ,you have to love high school relationships. You know, I was looking at all my old facebook messages the other day. and I cant across ours. The conversations were so weird but we'd still talk for hours. While I was reading them, i could see her and I in my head actually having this conversation. I could see little me, and little her standing there talking. I heard her voice, I saw her facial expressions, it was so nostalgic. And i absolutely loved it. It was actually a moment when it sent chills down my spine. Now dont get me wrong,the feelings I had for jade are long one, and I wish her and hers well. I know we'll never be together again, or even have teh same relationship that we did, and im cool with that. However, i have come to the conclusion that ill probably see her several times again before I die, because its obviously unavoidable, and im ok with that too. I actually have more to say but I have a meeting in an hour, so i probably should start getting dressed. But there wil be a follow up post. I have more stories to tell. lol

Soul Searching

Interview with Tupac Shakur

"I ain't too proud to tell you that I cry sometimes...."

J. Cole- Lost Ones... this has to be one of J. Cole's realest songs. It was on one of his earlier mixtapes, and made its way on his first album, I applaud the decision.

McCain is screwed...

So i was recently looking through the tax documents of presidents, and presidential candidates... and while looking at John McCain's i quickly realize that this dude was totally screwed. So John is supposedly worth about 54 million but that is primarily based on what he is entitled to from his marriage with Cindy McCain.. If you didn't know already, cindy is the only heir to her a fathers beer company. (the company that owns Budweiser). and She controls the family trust. And it looks like she has everything in her name except for their joint checking accounts which is worth about 250k.... He gets 54k from a pension, has about a 2 million in life insurance and an IRA plan totaling his personal net worth (not including his wife) being around 3-4 million tops. His kids have about 10 million in mutual funds in their name, and not to mention the trust funds that they surely have in place. That means that McCain is worth less than half of what his kids are worth. So i say all of this to say... I hope John is really nice to cindy or has a really good prenup... Because if he doesnt... Cindy will probably take her kids and her 9 figure bank account and John will be.... screwed.. (Lots of rambling... loads of fun, and im bored at work, bare with me)

Childish Gambino- Do ya Like

This German janitor at my job put me on.

Aloe Blac-Green Lights

The Diary of Kanye West (2004)

Kanye West MTV Diary '04 from Brandan Evans on Vimeo.

Probably the most expensive low-budget music video of all time...

While this probably was the most expensive low budget video of all time, it was so much more. The first time I heard Otis By Kanye and Jay-z, I loved it, it felt like the were taking it back to their Heart of the city days. For those that don't know, Heart of the city was on Jay -Zs blueprint album and was Kanye's first platinum produced record. BUt anywho, i was watching the video with one of my friends and when it was over she was just like "That was terrible, extremely low budget, i expected so much more from them and especially for this song".. At that point, the only argument I could make was "That was a 350k car that they just destroyed... so this has to be the most expensive low budget video of all time".. But after watching it again, and getting a chance to sit back and actually think about what i was watching and the msessages that they were sending in the song, in the video, and throughout the whole album.. all I can say is... WHOA..
I was going to explain what i thought jay and Kanye were saying in this song, but i think im going to save that for a later post, and include it when I explain what "Watch the Throne" really means. Stay Tuned

I'm so tired..

Ever since I started my internship June 20th, I havent stopped working... I was in the office 40 hours a week, I was trying not to let my social life suffer, I was trying to pilot 2 initiatives. A college ministry and a Summer Business Program... Now i'm done with my internship and Ive launched the college ministry, and Im still working on the Summer Business Program, now i want to be a board member at a certain not for profit so ive been working alot with that.... I didnt want to stop, I wanted to do it all...But I'm exhausted now...

I slept most of yesterday and my body feels like its just working its way up to tired. Like... A girl that I use to fantasize about was recently in my bed at 3am... and i was too tired to even care... Unfortunately she went back to school now so im kind of regreting that... but ill talk about that later..

But im in dire need for a vacation... I just want to up and leave.... Spend a weekend out of this city

Just the two of us

I didnt want to want

There was a time in my life, when i was younger when I didnt want to want for anything. I was afraid to want. I figured that wanting would lead to trying, and trying would lead to failure. But nowadays I cant stop wanting.


I want to fly in a single jet aircraft. I want to sky dive. I want to jump off of a building(safely). I want to travel the world. I want to be the best man I can be. I want to define myself. I want to win and have someone write about it. I want to lose and be ok with it. I want to keep giving and pay forward all that has been given to me. Im not sure if ill get all of these things. But i like having the possibility. I cant wait.

Letter to my unborn son

Rule #23

Just so you know son..

There’s a little truth behind every ‘just kidding’, a little curiosity behind every ‘just wondering’, a little knowledge behind every ‘i don’t know’, and a little emotion behind every ‘i don’t care’.

Im just saying... You can do better...

And Drake just keeps shooting it out.. Here another one... Drake-Marvin's Room (Prod. by 40)

Read beyond the words..

"Don't be afraid of the deep end...."

Its crack....

Im ocnvinceed that its something in their music that forces the listener to play it over and over and over again. I swear i had the mixtape on repeast for about a month. I couldnt go a full day without listening to it atleast twice. And im not the only one. Everyone that I know that has actually sat down and listened to it, said they had the same problem... Its crack...

Watching myself grow up..

Nowadays I'm watching myself grow up. Things that matter, dont matter anymore. I dont think the same anymore. the way I want to handle certain situations have changed. People that use to matter dont, and I just dont care. Im growing out of them.

A couple of my friends and I were talking the other day about who we thought we would still be friends with in the future. I pretty much had a good idea of that by the time I graduated from high school, but now its even more clear.

Im definitely not the same person I was 2 years ago.. im not even the person I was a year ago, or when I went to college. I remember when I came to college, i was always hanging out around campus, meeting a bunch of people, making moves professinally. Then second semester came, and more of that didnt really matter anymore. I went into hiding basically. I couldnt even tell you how many times I heard "Yo, where have you been?!". lol. It all got really old to me really fast. All the parties are the same, I got tired of seeing the same people. So i didnt...

I use to be all about money. Money Money Money. When I came to college, i began shedding that mind. I began to realize how insignificant it was. Now im working on giving back. Im working on giving scholarships, and even more than that, im giving time. My first week back from school I got a bunch of high school students together, and I got several of my friends together to discuss the first year experience. People arent really doing that, so students go in blind, or naive. Thats when they either drop out after the first year, become a hoe, or both. lol. But that was fun though, i enjoyed myself, my panel enjoyed it, the students and parents did as well.

This was an extremely random post.. im sure you can tell though...

Letter to my unborn son..

Rule #22
The world is yours for the taking

There will be a tipping point. A moment when your knuckles whiten and begin to hurt. As you watch as you slowly begin crossing the line. A day when your personal levee breaks and you find yourself standing waist deep. A time when the final domino tilts "the calm before the culmination" of some grand plan you unknowingly put into effect. But there is a reason for it all.

For some of us, it’s the light switch we never knew we had inside us. For others, it’s the familiar feeling of waking up one day with the absurdity of having nothing to look forward to but the end of the week. And knowing. That things can’t possibly go on like this. Somewhere along the way, it became acceptable for the world to live with mediocrity. Someone who lives on autopilot until the gears stop. Living too cautiously is like sky diving without a parachute. A smooth ride above the ground, until it becomes a landing your boredom won’t let you get away from.

There may not be a blueprint. I wont make you one, and 9 times out of 10, you wont find one. There may not be a trail of breadcrumbs that leads us through the woods to the man you were meant to be. But. There are other ways. Regardless of how firmly our feet are planted, the world will continue to spin beneath us. In spite of our best laid plans, those ambitions we’ve tried to bury will come yanking at our shirt tail. For obvious reasons, there are those of us that would let their pleas fall on deaf ears. The puppet’s dance is an easy-one. "Life by the numbers." Assuming you’re comfortable living with strings attached and discarded dreams being swept under your carpet. For some of us, there will come a tipping point. A moment when the dominoes stagger before they fall. A day when we look around and realize... the world is OURS, but only if we have the courage to step out of line, grab it by the horns.. and take it.


Love,
Your Father

Its all uncharted...

Its been too long...

Its been too long since ive posted some real content on here. More than a quick song. Its been a while since ive talked on here. HAd a good conversation with this blog. So in addition to all the things I have to do this weekend, im goign to commit to writing at least 2 post to update give an update of whats going through my head nowadays... it should be interesting stay tuned.

In short.... Drake is BACK

This is the first single off of Drake's upcoming EP "TAKE CARE". The song is titled Dreams money can buy.

Nipsey Hussle Ft June Summers- Bigger than life

This is probably my favorite song on the whole mixtape (The Marathon). Then "Love" is a close second. Nipsey HUssle is a real artist that puts out real music. I like the fact that there is no auto tune used by him or June, and I can understand every word he says.

Nipsey Hussle-Love

When I first heard of this dude last year, without listening to his music, I wrote him off as a rapper I dont want to hear. I came to this conclusion just from his name, assuming that he was all about drugs, girls, and money. But I heard this song this past weekend in a friends car, and it changed my perspective on him forever. Ive been listening to all of his mixtapes and im actually liking what I hear.

Hmmmm,,,Fox news....

Why cant I be MVP?

Derrick Rose Hightlight mix + NBA MVP acceptance Speech

Congrats Derrick. I didnt doubt you, that was all Dwayne, but I'm sure he's eating his words now.

Lil Wayne-Pray to the Lord

My sophomore year in high school, I listened to this song every day, once before i went to sleep and like 10 times before i left the house in the morning. Nowadays this song has been replaced by "The calm" By Drake, and the whole House of Balloons mixtape.

Aloe Blacc-I need a Dollar

Just heard this guy while flipping through the channels. I like his sound. think ill look up more of his stuff.

Letter to my unborn son..."If"...

Rule #21

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream—-and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—-and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:.
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build them up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on!”

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—-nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—-which is more—-you’ll be a Man, my son!"

— Rudyard Kipling, “If”

Will Smith in action: One of the best actors of all time.

Not to many rappers can go from doing what they do, to being a GOOD actor. But Will Smith pretty much mastered it. So did Queen Latifah, and Marky Mark (Mark Wahlberg)

But this clip shows why Will Smith is one of the best actors of all time. And my personal favorite....

None of it counts if you dont graduate!

"None of it counts if you dont graduate". I heard this ealier today before I got up to do one of my slave task(speaking engagement)... When he said that I kind of titled my head, you know.. like dogs do when they see you do something out of the ordinary. Im going to have to say that I disagree with him.. You learn so much more along the way!
A wihile back I did a post about what I learned in high school.. And honestly I wouldnt trade any of that for the world. And im only about to finish my first year and Ive already leaned so much.. think about it.. What do you learn from graduating? How to walk down an aisle in a single line? How that help you in the real world.. what will you do the day after graduation?

It alll counts... whether you graduate or not. This sounds like one of those things ill be telling my children down the road.. but I dont think ill tell them until they graduate...Ive always pictured graduation as something for the parents, for their own satisfaction. When I was in high school, I would have been perfectly fine allowing the school to just mail my diploma!

Speaking of kids, when was the last time I wrote a letter to them?

These will be the best memories....

I think this was probably one of the realest music video ive ever seen in my life. Big ups to Big Sean..

Go HARD or go HOME

When I was given my scholarship the dean failed to notify me that I would become a slave to the College of Business. I just learned recently, that in the fine print of the contract I signed when I accepted the scholarship. I am required to appear at banquets, recruiting events, and other random events as needed, and failure to do so, could result in me losing my scholarship.(they wouldnt do that though, im the best they have)
Usually I just end up talking about why I came to UIC(usually a lie to pump up the school). They want me to tell my experience but told me not to be "too honest"(then why am I here? im confused) Anywho, Im a pretty smart guy, but I still surprised by someof the things that come out of my mouth. It makes so much sense,and its so simple, but often times packs a big punch that carries alot of meaning. Like my latest statement today when I was tellign some high school students about some of the things I plan to do with my life within the next 5 years. This smart ass chaperon questioned my list of goals, he said.. "Thats alot of things to do. Very ambitious list. But is it all realistic?Do you think its appropriate to make these kids believe that you, them, or anyone else can "conquer the world" in such a short time?"
ME: I think its extremely approprate to send the message that they can do ANYTHING.I say go hard or go home. I'd rather swing for the fences and miss than bunt for an easy out.

He was a prick.. And I made him shut up.

Grant Hill talks the "Fab Five"

The Fab Five,” an ESPN film about the Michigan basketball careers of Jalen Rose, Juwan Howard, Chris Webber, Jimmy King and Ray Jackson from 1991 to 1993, was broadcast for the first time Sunday night. In the show, Rose, the show’s executive producer, stated that Duke recruited only black players he considered to be “Uncle Toms.” Grant Hill, a player on the Duke team that beat Michigan in the 1992 Final Four, reflected on Rose’s comments.

I am a fan, friend and longtime competitor of the Fab Five. I have competed against Jalen Rose and Chris Webber since the age of 13. At Michigan, the Fab Five represented a cultural phenomenon that impacted the country in a permanent and positive way. The very idea of the Fab Five elicited pride and promise in much the same way the Georgetown teams did in the mid-1980s when I was in high school and idolized them. Their journey from youthful icons to successful men today is a road map for so many young, black men (and women) who saw their journey through the powerful documentary, “The Fab Five.”

It was a sad and somewhat pathetic turn of events, therefore, to see friends narrating this interesting documentary about their moment in time and calling me a bitch and worse, calling all black players at Duke “Uncle Toms” and, to some degree, disparaging my parents for their education, work ethic and commitment to each other and to me. I should have guessed there was something regrettable in the documentary when I received a Twitter apology from Jalen before its premiere. I am aware Jalen has gone to some length to explain his remarks about my family in numerous interviews, so I believe he has some admiration for them.

In his garbled but sweeping comment that Duke recruits only “black players that were ‘Uncle Toms,’ ” Jalen seems to change the usual meaning of those very vitriolic words into his own meaning, i.e., blacks from two-parent, middle-class families. He leaves us all guessing exactly what he believes today.

I am beyond fortunate to have two parents who are still working well into their 60s. They received great educations and use them every day. My parents taught me a personal ethic I try to live by and pass on to my children.

I come from a strong legacy of black Americans. My namesake, Henry Hill, my father’s father, was a day laborer in Baltimore. He could not read or write until he was taught to do so by my grandmother. His first present to my dad was a set of encyclopedias, which I now have. He wanted his only child, my father, to have a good education, so he made numerous sacrifices to see that he got an education, including attending Yale.

This is part of our great tradition as black Americans. We aspire for the best or better for our children and work hard to make that happen for them. Jalen’s mother is part of our great black tradition and made the same sacrifices for him.

My teammates at Duke — all of them, black and white — were a band of brothers who came together to play at the highest level for the best coach in basketball. I know most of the black players who preceded and followed me at Duke. They all contribute to our tradition of excellence on the court.

It is insulting and ignorant to suggest that men like Johnny Dawkins (coach at Stanford), Tommy Amaker (coach at Harvard), Billy King (general manager of the Nets), Tony Lang (coach of the Mitsubishi Diamond Dolphins in Japan), Thomas Hill (small-business owner in Texas), Jeff Capel (former coach at Oklahoma and Virginia Commonwealth), Kenny Blakeney (assistant coach at Harvard), Jay Williams (ESPN analyst), Shane Battier (Memphis Grizzlies) and Chris Duhon (Orlando Magic) ever sold out their race.

To hint that those who grew up in a household with a mother and father are somehow less black than those who did not is beyond ridiculous. All of us are extremely proud of the current Duke team, especially Nolan Smith. He was raised by his mother, plays in memory of his late father and carries himself with the pride and confidence that they instilled in him.

The sacrifice, the effort, the education and the friendships I experienced in my four years are cherished. The many Duke graduates I have met around the world are also my “family,” and they are a special group of people. A good education is a privilege.

Just as Jalen has founded a charter school in Michigan, we are expected to use our education to help others, to improve life for those who need our assistance and to use the excellent education we have received to better the world.

A highlight of my time at Duke was getting to know the great John Hope Franklin, John B. Duke Professor of History and the leading scholar of the last century on the total history of African-Americans in this country. His insights and perspectives contributed significantly to my overall development and helped me understand myself, my forefathers and my place in the world.

Ad ingenium faciendum, toward the building of character, is a phrase I recently heard. To me, it is the essence of an educational experience. Struggling, succeeding, trying again and having fun within a nurturing but competitive environment built character in all of us, including every black graduate of Duke.

My mother always says, “You can live without Chaucer and you can live without calculus, but you cannot make it in the wide, wide world without common sense.” As we get older, we understand the importance of these words. Adulthood is nothing but a series of choices: you can say yes or no, but you cannot avoid saying one or the other. In the end, those who are successful are those who adjust and adapt to the decisions they have made and make the best of them.

I caution my fabulous five friends to avoid stereotyping me and others they do not know in much the same way so many people stereotyped them back then for their appearance and swagger. I wish for you the restoration of the bond that made you friends, brothers and icons.

I am proud of my family. I am proud of my Duke championships and all my Duke teammates. And, I am proud I never lost a game against the Fab Five.

Grant Henry Hill
Phoenix Suns
Duke ‘94

"Please tell me youre lying...."

So when I came to college. I knew alot of people, but there was pretty much only a couple people I actually hung with and considered friends....
There was a couple guys, and a couple girls. One of the girls hated UIC so much that she decide to move back to Ohio and attend the University of Akron. She had been on my mind the past couple days so i decided to text her today. The conversation went like this:
Me: Hey whats up kid
Her: Borom! What a surprise.. You know I like how we went from seeing and talking to each other everyday to me not hearing from you in months. If you didnt want to get married, you could have just said it. lol
Me: Lol, you know my number hasnt changed either. But it has been a while. So fill me in, whats been going on in your world?
Her: Hmm? Lets see? I hate my school, Im still with my boyfriend, o yeah and im pregnant.
Me: ..... Please tell me you're lying....

No, no she wasnt lying. but i wish she was. She just turned 19, and she was really a good girl with a little edge. She was adorable(not like the "i want to squeeze your cheeks adorable" the sexy adorable, really petite but still with a mature body) smart, funny as hell, and had a plan.. She made my first semester at UIC so much better, worth while. Now... she's really pregnant. When I asked her "what now?". The girl with the plan had no answer. Shes the daughter of two engineers, and wanted to be a doctor. Now.. She has a school she will probably dropout of school, go live with her long time hood boyfriend, and end up living a mediocre life in Cleavland...Sucks how things turn out.Even though she obviously isnt that smart, not adorable at all, has no plan, but atleast she's still funny.

"Dude, youre not that famous"

Lol, last semester during that meeting with Derrick Rose and Henry Thomas. My adviser at that time said half jokingly to Rose "Dude, shut up youre not even that famous".
Well actually before the 2010-11 NBA season started he really wasnt as popular as he his now. Unless you followed the NBA, The Chicago Bulls, College ball, or high school basketball, you probably wouldnt know who he is. Maybe what my adviser said offended rose enough to go out and get a new business manager, and/or pressure him to get him more air time. But since this season started, he has been in like 10 commercials, he has a new signature shoe, and all of this gave him the balls to just not show up to a taping of a nationally syndicated tv show that he was supposed to appear in.

Not only has he been killing off the court, he has been killing on the court as well! He's doing so well that he has Michael Jordan saying and I quote "Derrick Rose is MVP of the season".. Mind you, he said this AFTER Derrick just beat Jordan's Charlotte Bobcats.

Im going to have to catch up with my old adviser, see if he can set up another meeting with Rose.Imagine if he he was my first Pro-Basketball client. I need to hurry up and get my Series 65. lol

Disney Dream Portraits

Today I met a woman from O(Oprah's Magazine) and she actually showed me some of the content from April's issue, and among the loads of stuff that was going to be included, i found the Disney insert to be most interesting. Not only because im a huge fan of Disney's older movies, but also i thought that the portraits were extremely well done. When i got home, i immediately hopped online to see if i can find some digital copies to put on the blog.. I only got around to putting one up so far, but im working on the others.. SO stay tuned....


(the picture above is from the 2008 series)

Coming ashore as Ursula from “The Little Mermaid” is none other than Queen Latifah. The caption reads, “Where memories take hold and never let go.”

Queen Latifah as Ursula from 'The Little Mermaid'


As the Evil Queen, Olivia Wilde joins Alec Baldwin as the spirit of the magic mirror from “Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.” In the dark depths of her lair, the Queen has summoned the mirror’s spirit through wind and darkness to reveal the identity of a lovelier maid than she. The caption reads, “Where magic speaks, even when you’re not the fairest of them all.”


Penelope Cruz and Jeff Bridges appear as Belle and the transformed prince, recalling the final scene from “Beauty and the Beast.” The celebratory moment is captioned, “Where a moment of beauty lasts forever.”

Quote of the Day

After monday and tuesday, the week just seems to fly by.
-David Borom

It seems a if i have gone on an unexpected hiatus but good news... IM BACK

Official J. Cole ft. Drake- In the Morning

In The Morning Official Video - J. Cole Feat. Drake from Jermaine Cole on Vimeo.

There is a method to her madness

Drake is indeed my favorite artist hands down... But Lady Gaga has to be the artist that i admire the most. She's a genius to say the least. She's been studying fame and she is the "guinea pig". In addition to being on tour for most of the past 3 years, when she's in New York, she teaches at NYU.. Eventually im going to post some stuff from her studies... Should be pretty interesting.

Drake: Billboard.com Q&A

Its gets better--->>>

Losing your life doesnt scare you.. Wasting it does.. You are a REFORMER

Michael Jordan: Clothing before the NBA and after

Before the NBA(above,1983)

After the NBA(Above, 2009)

Despite the fact that Michael Jordan has gained substantial weight, since the earlier picture, is that really an excuse to be wearing clothes that are 3 sizes too big.

F*** You

I cant remember her....

I had a dream last night. In the dream were two girls. One girl is like my little sister now, so obviously i know exactly who that is. But the second girl was a girl that i know ive seen before, but i cant get a clear enough picture of her in my mind, to figure out who she is. But one thing is certain, I have seen her before in my real life, I just dont know where.... Not being able to remember your dreams sucks!

Moment 4 life..

" ‘now’ is always the time to design and build your dreams.
that’s what makes the journey so sweet."

Right now is such an exciting time. Really, ‘now’ is the only time there ever is. Everything else is a construct, but ‘now’ will never cease to be. I’m moving confidently in the direction of my dreams. I’ve had some nudges along the way, but recently there’s been this sense of urgency. I can’t wait to make my dreams real. To manifest a greater version of myself. To live the life I want.

The point of power is always in the present. It’s in the now. Appreciate the journey by appreciating the present. The highs, lows, challenges, gains and losses are all a part of the bigger picture. To change your future, change your ‘now’. Do something differently. Move in the direction you want to be. This life is a process. There is no destination, only direction.

I’m working,writing and growing, being totally absorbed by the power, possibility, and responsibility of this moment, which is all about becoming the best version of myself possible. I’m on Cloud 9. One of the best highs I have been on for a long time.

A few good words...

A little surgery..

So i think its time for this blog to go into a little surgery. I dont think that i have been completely satisfied since the green format. I have an idea about what i want for sure. Its just going to take the time.

Evil Prevails..

Many say that "evil prevails when good men fail to act"... But what they should have said was.. "Evil prevails"

The night before a friend of mine went back to new York,I was at her house and during a conversation, I said that i thought people were born evil... she immediately reminded me that I once said that I thought people were born good. Why the sudden change?

Growing up, nobody teaches a child to lie, but somehow we all have done it! We are born with the ability to lie and you have to be taught to do good. For example, we have to be taught to share.

In short, evil will always prevail. No matter how much good people do, they still cant make up for the evil. Some people arent taught to be good so they jsut sink back into their evil ways. The fact of the matter is, there are more evil people in the world than good. Good people are just simply out-numbered. And there is nothing you can do about it.

"People never get the flowers while they can still smell em"

Anybody who knows me, knows that Drake is my favorite artist. Period. And i am all for letting people you admire know, that you admire them... I know the tape is edited... But I still found it pretty funny.

Quote of the Day

Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.

-A Wise soul

One more chance

I always say.. "A man gets one chance to make a mistake, and one opportunity to make it right"... What if you were given one opportunity to go back and do something differently. I guess you could say, "one redo"... Where would you go? How much of your life would you have to redo to make up for what you did?

Now dont get me wrong,I dont regret the things ive done, or didnt do. But i just always wonder, how my life looks in this alternative universe. Its always in the back of my mind.

You Know?

Tuning-Bullets

I heard this song on a episode of "Weeds". I found myself randomly humming this song throughout the day.. I had to throw it on the blog so that everyone else can be humming this song too.

Follow: 67 facts

In july of 2010, I wrote a list of 67 facts about me. 6 months later, lets see what has changed. Lets do it again.
1. The Miami heat are finally performing up to expectations.

2. The Bulls are my favorite team again.

3. The Lakers are my second favorite.

4. Then the Heat, then the 76ers, then the Spurs.

5. I saw my ex girlfriend jade at least once a week over break. And i think i only said 3 words to her.( "hey jade", and "aight"lol)


6.Ive come to a realization over the past couple weeks.

7.She isnt to blame for what happened.

8. I dont know if i believe the story she told me given the current circumstances.

9. I believe that high school is actually 5 years long.

10. Its the regular 4 years. Then the first year of college.

11. I came to this realization this past summer.

12. Scarlett was the first person i told.

13. Because she was the only person with me when it came to me.

14. Ive never liked a girl longer than her.

15. We were talking about that the other day actually.

16. I told Brandon that it was pretty pathetic.

17. Some things never change.

18. Many things do.

19. Im going to be a motivational speaker.

20. Or a life coach

21. Ive already accepted that i cant be a therapist.

22. Ive already started writing the curriculum for the series of seminars i want to do.

23. I sometimes wish i was a tad less attractive to people.

24. I dont think im a bombshell, but something makes these girls flock.

25. That fact causes alot of conflicts sometimes.

26. Sometimes i wish i had med a girls friend before i met them.

27. I want to go back in time sooooo bad.

28. But i need to still know what i know now, and take it back with me.

29. I use have the rough blueprints to my house for the future.

30. It still includes a dance studio. With 2 walls of mirrors, and 2 walls of glass. If you cant imagine that... You're not meant to.

32. I use to say that "youre nobody until somebody kills you"

33. I have a little different opinion now.

34. Youre nobody until somebody loves you.

35. I remember the moment when i fell in love with hip hop.

36. I woke up to "Mo Money Mo Problems"

37. I believe the words that are in that song.

38. Many of these facets may evolve into post one day.

39. Nip/Tuck is a great series

40. I dint know that it had been on air for so long.

41. Since 2003 just in case you were wondering.

42. I enjoyed The Riches more though.

43. Stock trading has become my life.

44. By the end of the year. I want to have ,my trading license.

45. Im debating on if ill stay in school after i get it.

46. I didnt use to like wearing suits.

47. Nowadays i love what i feel when i close the button on a well fitting suit.

48. I dont trade stocks for the money.

49. I dont care about money.

50. Many people are surprised when i say that.

51. I would never work for a company that had no morals.

52. Philanthropy is important to me.

53. I honestly use to buy labels.

54. Now i just buy quality clothing.

55. I fell in love with H&M.

56. Their clothes sometimes lack quality and longevity but i like the style. An its cheap.

57. Im not really cheap anymore.

58. I finally understand that you get what you pay for.

59. Id be a hypocrite if I bought anymore Jordans.

60. Graphic tees are a waste of money.

61. Leaders 1354 stains people.

62. I wonder why big girls like me.

63. I guess big girls need love too.

64. I use to draw my mustache and goatee on my face.

65. I dont have to do that anymore, lol.

66. Im growing up right before my eyes.

67. I cant wait to watch my children grow up.

68. Im in no rush to have kids though.

69. I was never sure if my ex girlfriend was a virgin when we had sex.

70. It wouldnt have been the first thing she had lied to me about.

71. Im a little insensitive sometimes.

72. I feel like i should apoligize to her.

73. I wish there was a place in the world that was int he 70s all year around.

74. That where i want to be.

75. After i graduate/leave (whichever comes first) Im either going to live in New York or Atlanta.

76. I havent decided which one yet.

77. Maybe i'll live in both places.

78. I'd never get kicked out of school.

79. Or dropout because i had no other choice.

80. I have realize that it is possible to change and rule the world without back stabbing, lying and manipulation.

81. Those people who think differently will only get so far....

82. Id rather not have those people in my life.

83. Bad habits are too easy to pick up.

84. And too difficult to break.

85. Bad habits can be broken easily if you want it bad enough.

86. I dont think that people can change.

87. I think that you are who you are, an you can only act for so long.

88. I believe that i am finally ME.

89.I am still a good actor.

90. Some of the things that i thought were really lame years ago, i now have fallen in love with the same things.

91. For example, christmas sweaters.

92. I really wanted to wear one for this years christmas card picture. But the one that I liked wouldnt get to my house in time.

93. I need to get my biological clock working the way it use to. I need to be sleep at 12, and back awake at 6.

94. I feel like i have been wasting to many hours with my eyes closed.

95. I wonder how long Facebook can remain what it is.

96. I think its crazy that facebook is worth more than 5 of the largest airlines... Combined... Its worth twice as much as starbucks.

97. I would have been a millionaire by the end of 2008 if i had taken certain tips i was given.

98. I get irritated very quickly.

99. Im working on it.

100. Ive always believed that simplicity is key.

101. Will Smith and Johnny Depp are my favorite actors. Michale Douglas is my third.

102. I love oldies.

103. At night, thats what i always turn on to ease my mind.

104. I still want a puppy. 6 months ago i wanted a pitbull

105. Now I want family/friendly vs fierce.

106. It would be nice if i could get the best of both worlds.

107. IM thinking about wearing suits everyday for now on.

108. I think its a nice habit to pick up.

109. I hate to hurt peoples feelings.

110. Im sleepy so im done.

111. I wonder how long im going to be using this blog. Its a great place to....release...

Good Night.

Kids these Days-Darling Music Video

Theyre at it again...

Mid-Night conversation

Yesterday i was beat. After working on my portfolio for my internship i just passed out in my chair, then hopped on my bed for some rest. Maybe a couple hours later i got a text, asking me what i was doing and asked if i wanted to come out. I was about to send her off until she sent another text mentioning Scarlett.That changed my whole perspective, i decide to get up, get dressed, and go out....

After convincing everyone that they did not want to go to that party. We ended up at a friends house, just sitting around chilling. But then.... Everyone decided to go to sleep.. except Scarlett and I. It was about 2 o clock in the morning and we were just lying there on the couch together talking about everything. School, life, future, the past... Just like old times

Actually we spent alot of time talking about the past. We talked about the summer, we talked about bullshitting, we talked about what she thought "my type" was.In the midst of it all, I looked down at her and she had this really puzzled look on her face. Like she was in really deep thought.. So i asked "whats wrong?"... She first said nothing, but after some persuasion she finally started talking... She asked.. "why didnt you ever say anything?" Say anything about what?.. "You always said that you had a huge crush on me throughout 7th and 8th grade. Why didnt you ever say anything? She kind of caught me off guard. Wasnt expecting that at all. And honestly, i didnt have an answer for her. I really dont know why......But Somehow i got her to change the subject, and we just kept talking.. As I was dozing off..she whispered in my ear and said "Don't forget me".. And with the utmost sincerity , i looked her in the eyes and said "I won't"...And. before i knew it, it was 6 o clcok, and i was rushing to go meet my mother. So many things were discussed, i cant even put them all on here.

Its nights like this that ill always remember.. With the people that ill never forget.

One of the Greatest gifts of life....

In a recent conversation, i was talking to a friend,and the subject of relatoinships, and love came up. And i said..

"One of the greatest gifts of life is Love, and having those feelings reciprocated..."

It was one of those times when i said something, and i really had to stop and think. In the past id write it down in my sidekick or in my iphone. But since i now have neither. Ill share it here.

What you doin?... Bullshitting

Its true... People change.. Some people change.. others never change, and they just get worse. I was a supreme bullshitter. Its how i lived. I manipulated people, I learned everything i could about you, then attacked... I knew exactly where to hit to hurt people the most. I took advantage of people.

But when i grew up. (funny how i actually grew up over the span of a couple months,lol)It took years to corrupt me, but only a couple months for me to grow out of my bad habits. And im so glad that i did.

You see, when i grew up i realized that manipulation and snaking was not necessary to get the things you want out of people, or out of life as a whole. I realized that you can get everything you want, by being kind and sincere.

I learned that a bullshitter is only bullshitting himself in the end. I wanted to be a flawless bullshitter. I didnt want to be a lying bullshitter. My method was not to lie, but to instead... Manipulate the truth. But I discovered that you cant be a bullshitter without telling some lies along the way. In addition to lying to the people around me. I was lying to myself. The worst part about it all, is that i was believing the lies I told. I believed that i was doing some good. I believed that i was getting ahead somehow. But in reality, i was digging a hole, i was reversing everything my mentors ever taught me. And i brought others down with me. 2 people i most regret pulling in my holes were Bridgette and...(yes) Jade.

Ive apologized to Bridgette more times that i can count, but someone i have yet to apologize to with sincerity is Jade. She deserved the truth. Both of us did. But She didnt deserve it the way it was served. It was cruel.

Another thing i realized after I stopped bullshitting myself. was that I am now really at peace. Ive always been at peace (so I thought) Calm cool and collected. But it was a false peace. Just like the false stories i was telling these girls. But once i stopped lying to myself, i am finally at peace and can move to immeasurable heights.

Truth is, over the past couple years i havent done much of anything business wise. I mean, i still trade, and I have pretty good returns from that. But after Little Miracle i tried starting 3 businesses that have ultimately been flops. But since ive grown up even the business side of me has been on the up and up. Starting with New World over the summer. Now with Bean Jordan. Finance has always been my passion so when i stopped bullshitting myself with these wacky ideas that i knew couldnt/wouldnt work i was able to do what i really wanted to do. Im indeed grateful for all that has happened. And even more grateful that that i now see clearly.

Last but not least, I realized that i one day.. someone will see right through the lies and the bullshit. one day someone will look through it all, right into your soul... Then what?

Once a bullshitter.. Not always a bullshitter...

One day, someone will see right through you.. then what?

I was having a conversation this past weekend about the 48 Laws of Power. I mentioned that another friend of mine said that the 48 laws was a book about how to get ahead by snaking people. I agreed but still claimed it was a great book. BUt the person i was talking to disagreed. He justified the snaking by say it was "sharing". He claimed that the book taught you to "take on what others cant handle"
When he said that i thought about what my friend told me when i tried justifying the contents of the book. She said "sounds like a snake defending his bible". Indeed.. exactly what it was...I think that it take the realization of the lowest person you know, to realize that someone else has been false accused.