Probably the most expensive low-budget music video of all time...

While this probably was the most expensive low budget video of all time, it was so much more. The first time I heard Otis By Kanye and Jay-z, I loved it, it felt like the were taking it back to their Heart of the city days. For those that don't know, Heart of the city was on Jay -Zs blueprint album and was Kanye's first platinum produced record. BUt anywho, i was watching the video with one of my friends and when it was over she was just like "That was terrible, extremely low budget, i expected so much more from them and especially for this song".. At that point, the only argument I could make was "That was a 350k car that they just destroyed... so this has to be the most expensive low budget video of all time".. But after watching it again, and getting a chance to sit back and actually think about what i was watching and the msessages that they were sending in the song, in the video, and throughout the whole album.. all I can say is... WHOA..
I was going to explain what i thought jay and Kanye were saying in this song, but i think im going to save that for a later post, and include it when I explain what "Watch the Throne" really means. Stay Tuned

I'm so tired..

Ever since I started my internship June 20th, I havent stopped working... I was in the office 40 hours a week, I was trying not to let my social life suffer, I was trying to pilot 2 initiatives. A college ministry and a Summer Business Program... Now i'm done with my internship and Ive launched the college ministry, and Im still working on the Summer Business Program, now i want to be a board member at a certain not for profit so ive been working alot with that.... I didnt want to stop, I wanted to do it all...But I'm exhausted now...

I slept most of yesterday and my body feels like its just working its way up to tired. Like... A girl that I use to fantasize about was recently in my bed at 3am... and i was too tired to even care... Unfortunately she went back to school now so im kind of regreting that... but ill talk about that later..

But im in dire need for a vacation... I just want to up and leave.... Spend a weekend out of this city

Just the two of us

I didnt want to want

There was a time in my life, when i was younger when I didnt want to want for anything. I was afraid to want. I figured that wanting would lead to trying, and trying would lead to failure. But nowadays I cant stop wanting.


I want to fly in a single jet aircraft. I want to sky dive. I want to jump off of a building(safely). I want to travel the world. I want to be the best man I can be. I want to define myself. I want to win and have someone write about it. I want to lose and be ok with it. I want to keep giving and pay forward all that has been given to me. Im not sure if ill get all of these things. But i like having the possibility. I cant wait.

Letter to my unborn son

Rule #23

Just so you know son..

There’s a little truth behind every ‘just kidding’, a little curiosity behind every ‘just wondering’, a little knowledge behind every ‘i don’t know’, and a little emotion behind every ‘i don’t care’.

Im just saying... You can do better...

And Drake just keeps shooting it out.. Here another one... Drake-Marvin's Room (Prod. by 40)

Read beyond the words..

"Don't be afraid of the deep end...."

Its crack....

Im ocnvinceed that its something in their music that forces the listener to play it over and over and over again. I swear i had the mixtape on repeast for about a month. I couldnt go a full day without listening to it atleast twice. And im not the only one. Everyone that I know that has actually sat down and listened to it, said they had the same problem... Its crack...

Watching myself grow up..

Nowadays I'm watching myself grow up. Things that matter, dont matter anymore. I dont think the same anymore. the way I want to handle certain situations have changed. People that use to matter dont, and I just dont care. Im growing out of them.

A couple of my friends and I were talking the other day about who we thought we would still be friends with in the future. I pretty much had a good idea of that by the time I graduated from high school, but now its even more clear.

Im definitely not the same person I was 2 years ago.. im not even the person I was a year ago, or when I went to college. I remember when I came to college, i was always hanging out around campus, meeting a bunch of people, making moves professinally. Then second semester came, and more of that didnt really matter anymore. I went into hiding basically. I couldnt even tell you how many times I heard "Yo, where have you been?!". lol. It all got really old to me really fast. All the parties are the same, I got tired of seeing the same people. So i didnt...

I use to be all about money. Money Money Money. When I came to college, i began shedding that mind. I began to realize how insignificant it was. Now im working on giving back. Im working on giving scholarships, and even more than that, im giving time. My first week back from school I got a bunch of high school students together, and I got several of my friends together to discuss the first year experience. People arent really doing that, so students go in blind, or naive. Thats when they either drop out after the first year, become a hoe, or both. lol. But that was fun though, i enjoyed myself, my panel enjoyed it, the students and parents did as well.

This was an extremely random post.. im sure you can tell though...

Letter to my unborn son..

Rule #22
The world is yours for the taking

There will be a tipping point. A moment when your knuckles whiten and begin to hurt. As you watch as you slowly begin crossing the line. A day when your personal levee breaks and you find yourself standing waist deep. A time when the final domino tilts "the calm before the culmination" of some grand plan you unknowingly put into effect. But there is a reason for it all.

For some of us, it’s the light switch we never knew we had inside us. For others, it’s the familiar feeling of waking up one day with the absurdity of having nothing to look forward to but the end of the week. And knowing. That things can’t possibly go on like this. Somewhere along the way, it became acceptable for the world to live with mediocrity. Someone who lives on autopilot until the gears stop. Living too cautiously is like sky diving without a parachute. A smooth ride above the ground, until it becomes a landing your boredom won’t let you get away from.

There may not be a blueprint. I wont make you one, and 9 times out of 10, you wont find one. There may not be a trail of breadcrumbs that leads us through the woods to the man you were meant to be. But. There are other ways. Regardless of how firmly our feet are planted, the world will continue to spin beneath us. In spite of our best laid plans, those ambitions we’ve tried to bury will come yanking at our shirt tail. For obvious reasons, there are those of us that would let their pleas fall on deaf ears. The puppet’s dance is an easy-one. "Life by the numbers." Assuming you’re comfortable living with strings attached and discarded dreams being swept under your carpet. For some of us, there will come a tipping point. A moment when the dominoes stagger before they fall. A day when we look around and realize... the world is OURS, but only if we have the courage to step out of line, grab it by the horns.. and take it.


Love,
Your Father