As it comes to another close....

Im sooo tired!! Thursday.. Class, meeting... Friday... I think i chilled with matt... Saturday... Kicked it with her... Sunday... Chill day... ACtually there is another day to my weekend but nothing is really planned.. So as far as im concerned.. this is the end.....It doesnt seem like i ve done too much this weekend, why am i tired... Let me tell you....

Thursday:
Thursday was so hectic..I had school. Saw her.. "I got some stuff to do after school, you coming".. "Of course"... Who would have known that she'd agree".... So right after school, we went to my house to work on the business plan . Although we ended up just sitting around, watching "keeping up with the Kardashians"... She always has me watching the most homo tv shows.. First the bad girls club now this.. Although, this show isnt that bad, ive found myself watching it a lot more often too...But anywho.. We watched a couple episodes of that, then i had to take Menelik to Sunshine... So we get ready to go, and Dana walks in the door.. And Bridgette comes out the bathroom... Their standing next to each other talking then all you hear is "You all do look alike!!",lol.. I swear, they look like they could be sisters! Its actually extremely weird.. Now when i look at her, i not only see my mother, I see my sister too! (another reason why we'd never get serious!"lol. Anywho, Dana insist that she rides with me to take Menelik. So we all go... I take Menelik, then we ride to Subway.. After subway, bridgette wants some nasty chips.. we get those. then off to the train! We get to the train.. and we're all talking, then i call Dana fat.. and bridgette says... "David!, whyd you call her fat.. she isnt fat.. you could have just said "chunky.. or bigboned".. HAHAHAHAHA!! You should have seen Danas face.. Priceless..Anywho, of course, my mom gets in the car with an attitude... I can change that quick though.. We run back upstairs to get Meneliks bag. then off to sunshine so i can give my lesson on income statements. But first, too McDonalds becasue this genius decides shes hungry now... lol, fun time in McDonalds! But now back to the mission. We get to sunshine.. First we see tenelle, they start talking.. then into the room... You know.. when we are together.. People either have 1 of two reactions... "ugh" or "ooo".. Either "ugh is that your girlfriend?" or "oo you all are cute together, is this your girlfriend".. Yeah well... this was a "ugh" moment... lol... Hilarious! We walk in.. werent even in there for 10 seconds.. then "Ugh, is that your girlfriend?.. taty is hilarious.. And that had bridgette on the edge of her seat the whole time we were there. Good thing Tenelle was there to calm her down while i was working on my plan... So now its time to go... We get out the door.. And shes like "o my god, too many haters! Im never going back there again".. What are you talking about? what were they hating on? "Me!".. And why were they hating on you?.. "Becauae i look better than them"... Well no argument there.. they are all pretty shot... "And i was with you".. Whats that got to do with anything? We arent even together,lol. "So.. they dont know that, and they were mad!! Tenelle told me how they are always on your dick! And i know its true, because, i was sitting there watching them watch you walk around".. Lol, i guess... But by this time... we are at our next stop.. Church! Meeting time!.. We get over to the banquet hall walk in the room.. Get to the table.. Arianna's eyes start bulging out her face..Of course Bro. Byrd speaks to bridgette. because he's met her the last time she came with me... So i introduce her to everyone else.. "Hey everyone.. This is my friend Bridgette".. everyone says hi, except arianna... Whats her issue?.. So the meeting is about to start. I say "you want to sit over here with me, and do your homework, or you want to sit over here..."im fine here, but can i see your phone though?"... Yeah sure.. She's like the only girl ill just give my phone too... Why? Because even though she is the only other person who knows how to bypass my code to get into my text messages...she never goes through my phone... I gave her my phone.. She sat there for 2 hours.. with my phone sitting right in front of her.. and i came back to it... with a couple text messages from a coupe girls. Now most girls, who know how to get into my text messages, would have had my phone, and probably would have went through every message in my phone,"hmm whats going on between them?1".. Nope... Not her..

Yeah thats good and all, but here's another reason why i could never get serious with her.. She knows how to bypass my phone codes! Just like me.. in all the wrong ways! lol.. Im fine with friends though

But back to the story.. The meetings over.. We're leaving.. She says.. "That girl was staring at you, like the whole meeting!"... What? Naw, thats dead.. "whys that?" Thats old, i use to talk to her back in the day, then i start back talkign to jade so i put her on one of the guys, she was with him forever before they broke up, and she is not in the "pass system", and it would be super grimey for me to mess with her, i dont care if she likes me or not... "yeah whatever.. i know that she needed to stop looking at me though"... Girl you always have a problem with these girls that are "staring at me",youre not my girlfriend, dont you have a boyfriend that treats you like dirt, shouldnt you be more concerned about who's staring at him? No i didnt say that out loud.. But i did say "Why do you always notice who's looking at me, and I dont?.. "Becasue its obvious!".. Well how about this one... Alot of people look at me, and honestly, i dont have enough eyes to look back at them all, and you should pick up that same mindset.. "Whatever"... Time to go home.... I take her home, walk her to the door as always.. Hey no tears!, Smiles and laughter! Now thats what i like to see! Back home, to get my stuff, then off to brandons, to do this work..Stayed up until midnight doing that, then to sleep..

Friday:
Friday was weird.. I stayed up all night doing that stuff..And I still had to do my essay! soo i stayed home unitl 7th, doing my essay! Then i get to school, and for soem reason, everyone is looking for me, lol.. Menelik, Matt, Bridgette.. Menelik want to work on the busniess plan, Matt, was just wondering where i was, and somerthing was wrong with Bridgette, but she wasnt actually up for talking about it.. And i really didnt feel like prying it out of her,and I was too tired to care anyway, lol.. So i gave her a hug, and i went to class!

After school.. i went.. grabbed a bite to eat, went home, and went to sleep.. I slept from about 3 30 to 5, when i had to get my mom.. Then when i got home,I had to finish the business plan..So i did that.. then i had to wair on my mother to come back home with the car... finally she gets home about 9 30.. so i go get matt and ryan, i take ryan home, then me and matt go back to his house, to play the game... O O yeah! Then we have another talk about girls and girlfriends and I finally get another guy on my side who says that girls who smoke are not attractive!Everyone else in the group say "man thats sexy, i would love a girl that would be willing to light up with me, and its a great way to bond"... Im sorry, the idea of a girl putting a brown stick up to her mouth and blowing smoke rings out is not attractive!! Its not cute, classy, sexy at all! Quite the opposite! Just like matt said.. Smoking is just one of those things, its like "I don't want my girlfriend to do everything I do"Some things should be left to the guys.... Then ....fast forward.. i go home, sleep.. ..

Saturday:

Now im tired of talking about my weekend, so there will be alot more fast forwarding in this story. I wake up, and im told that im about to go get some breakfst with the fam,. Fast forward.. breakfast turned into Burger King stacker, very sad.. Then back home.. I get a bit more sleep .. then.. ""Venus vs. Mars".. Well only one person has that ringtone... I wake up, not like i can sleep through it anyway, answer, we talk for a minute "you should come over here!", lol.. Hmm? Im not doing anything, "alright, ill be over in a couple hours"... So couple hours come, and im pulling up in front of her house.I call. "Yeah im outside". Ok.. then she comes out to the porch,Yelling at the car.. "I need to talk to you".. So i get out, walk up to the porch," whats going on?"... Then she says, "im on the phone with youre friend sara".... O boy.. what now!? You just stopped being mad about this!...then her mom opens the door. .."David! how are you? Why are you all standing outside, David come on in".. "he doesnt deserve to be in the house right now".. lol, what is this asian girl saying to her? We go up to her room, and she's still not talking to me, shes still talking to the girl. Then her mom yells up stairs and ask me to take her to some shoe store. Sure why not, that give me a way out...So i took her, and was definitely waiting forever!! lol, it was cool though. But as i was sitting there, that girl called me! i almost died.. in a bad way... definitely hung up on her, as soon as her voice was recognized! So we get back to her house. Her mom gets out.. "can you just send bridgette out?. Sure no problem... So after a minute.. She calls. "come in".. Man i have to go.. I go upstairs, and shes like.... laughing... Im confused.. are you mad? What the heck did she say? But by now my mother and sister were blowing my phone up because we were supposed to go to this play, so i left, took them to the play then came back. I was confused.. But in order to keep her lauging, i couldnt leave her alone, then she would start thinking stuff,.... We didnt need that. I had to hurry up and figure out what Sara said, so that i could set the record straight... So i tell her to come out.. Im assumming that she decided to put on some clothes, because i swear it took her forever to come outside. So she finally comes out. gets in the car.. Looks at me and just smiles... Hmm.. Surprising.. lol. So whats up? "nothing, im fine"... fast forward.. go get food.. back to the house.. fast forward through, lots of laughs, and talking, and chris brown,lol. Few hours passed, and before we know it, its like 10, and i get a text from Dana telling me to come pick them up. ok, Time to go bye bye.. She puts back on her shoes.. (no Bridgette, im never going to give you a foot massage, so you can go ahead and give that dream up,lol) We get out the car..I walk her to the door.. We talk for a minute longer.. Then i hug her.. and she says... "i always feel so warm when you hug me"..Weird, youre kind of making this relationship awkward, please stop.. Then I immediately think of Jade for some reason,.... Fast forward... traffic sucks.. i finally get to dana and mother.. play taxi for a minute.. i get home, and thats when i think i texted jade.. I just wanted to talk to her...Then as we talked.. i fell asleep,lol. Sorry about that.

Sunday:

Sunday.. not much happened today, i just.. chilled...slept, ate.. was suppssed to go out.. but just didnt feel like it.. fast forward... Time to sleep,lol.. I told you that there will be alot of fast forwarding towards the end..lol.. Maybe ill say more later...

So which are you?

The human mind behaves as if it were divided into two parts, the Thinker and the Prover.

The Thinker can think about virtually anything. History shows that it can think the earth is suspended on the back of infinite turtles or that the Earth is hollow, or that the Earth is floating in space; comparative religion and philosophy show that Thinker can regard itself as mortal, as immortal, as both mortal and immortal (the reincarnation model) or even as non-existent. It can think itself into living in a Christian universe, a Marxist universe, a scientific-relativistic universe – among many possibilities.
The thinker can think himself sick, and can even think himself well again.

The Prover is a much simpler mechanism. It operates on one law only: Whatever the Thinker thinks; the Prover proves.

If the Thinker thinks that the sun moves around the earth, the Proves will obligingly organize all perceptions to fit that thoughts; if the Thinker changes its mind and decided the earth moves around the sun, the Prover will reorganize the evidence.

If the Thinker thinks “holy water” from Lourdes will cure lumbago, the Prover will skillfully orchestrate all signals from the glands, muscles, organs, etc. until they have organized themselves into good health again.

Of course, it if fairly easy to see that other people’s minds operate this way; it is comparatively much harder to become aware that one’s own mind is working that way also.

It is believed, for instance, that some men are more “objective” than others. Businessmen are allegedly hard-nosed, pragmatic and “objective” in this sense. A brief examination of the dingbat politics most businessman endorse will quickly correct this impression.

Scientists, however, are still believed to be objective. No study of the lives of the great scientists will confirm this. They were as passionate, and hence as prejudiced, as any assembly of great painters of great musicians.

In the long run, we are hopefully approximating closer and closer to “objective Truth” over the centuries.

In the short run, Orr’s law always holds:

“Whatever the Thinker thinks, the Prover will prove.”

By: Prometheus Rising

Wow!

A well-heeled Philadelphia school district gave out laptops to students—then used the webcams attached to covertly spy on them, both at school and at home, according to a class-action lawsuit. The case, Blake J. Robbins v. Lower Merion School District, was filed after one of the school’s vice principals disciplined Robbins’ son for “improper behavior in his home,” using a photo taken from the camera as evidence, according to the filing.

The laptops were issued to 1,800 students at three high schools in the district, each with a built-in webcam that, according to the lawsuit, administrators can activate remotely and covertly. The suit is a class action, brought on behalf of all the students and their parents. They’re seeking damages for invasion of privacy, theft of private information, and unlawful interception and access of electronic information.

by: newser.com

Quote of the Day

Whats your reflection?

I just thought about the concept, what if there were no mirrors? No reflections. No cameras to take pictures.

If we walked around, never knowing how we “looked,” would there be such an emphasis on the physical? On the material?

Would we be more inclined to work on enhancing our inner selves versus our outer shells?

Would how a person looks even matter, or would that concept be so trivial and unevolved? In this time, this reality of ours, as a collective, we spend most of our time –days and nights– focusing on enhancing everything on the outside, and barely any significant time on what’s inside…that which, from a universal perspective, in an ethereal sense, is what really has any relevance.

Can people really even let go of the material? If that didn’t exist for them, I wonder what would? What would people have if you took away all that centers around this outside, illusory, existence? If money, clothes, and cars no longer determined status. If beauty was no longer gauged by the physical self. Magazines would go out of business. Beauty products, clothing stores, gyms, etc.

What if the standard was how deep one connected with their self, and how in-tune an individual was with the collective consciousness of the universe. Or what if music and other forms of entertainment aided in expanding and attaining a higher level of consciousness, versus having us thinking about chasing paper, sex, violence, and infidelity. Or if it actually united man and woman, over continuing to erode the male/female connection.

Are we just pawns in this world? Are we that weak that we allow others to determine what we deem to be of value, of significance? Are we that stupid to allow these forces to continue to divide us? To keep our souls imprisoned and our minds in constant states of want, like little children and their developing egos. Adults are no different, swayed by the media, by entertainment, by money, showing them what they should be looking like, smelling like, how they should be living, what they should be wearing, and just as children we look, eyes wide open, for others to tell us what is cool, what we should be doing, and then make moves accordingly, doing our best to act out that role, redefining our egos every time, buying into the bullshit, literally and figuratively. Just eating it all up. And in the end, we feel so empty.

Is that you?

Don’t look in the mirror.

“What’s your Soul’s reflection?”

——
Jessica Mann

The Heros Journey

The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are.
What you have to do, you do with play.
Life is without meaning. You bring the meaning to it.
The meaning of life is whatever you ascribe it to be.

Being alive is the meaning.

The warrior’s approach is to say “yes” to life: “Yea” to it all.

Participate joyfully in the sorrows of the world.
We cannot cure the world of sorrows, but we can choose to live in joy.
When we talk about settling the world’s problems, We’re barking up the wrong tree.
The world is perfect. It’s a mess. It has always been a mess.

We are not going to change it.
Our job is to straighten out our own lives.
We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come.

If we fix on the old, we get stuck. when we hang onto any form, we are in danger of putrefaction.
Hell is life drying up. The Hoarder, the one in us that wants to keep, to hold on, must be killed.
If we are hanging onto the form now, we’re not going to have the form next.
You can’t make an omelet without breaking eggs.

Destruction before creation.

Out of perfection nothing can be made. Every process involves breaking something up. The earth must be broken to bring forth new life. If the seed does not die, there is no plant.
Bread results from the death of wheat. Life lives on lives. Our own life lives on the acts of other people.
If you are lifeworthy, you can take it. What we are really living for is the experience of life, both the pain and the pleasure.
The world is a match for us. we are a match for the world. Opportunities to find deeper powers within ourselves come when life seems most challenging. Negativism to the pain and ferocity of life is negativism to life.

We are not there until we can say “Yea” to it all.

To take a righteous attitude toward anything is to denigrate it. Awe is what moves us forward. As you proceed through life, following your own path, birds will shit on you. don’t bother to brush it off. Getting a comedic view of your situation gives you spiritual distance. Having a sense of humor saves you. Eternity is a dimension of here and now.

The divine lives within you. Live from your own center.

Your real duty is to go away from the community to find your bliss. The society is the enemy when it imposes its structures on the individual.
On the dragon there are many scales. Every one of them says “Thou Shalt.” Kill the dragon “Thou Shalt.” When one has killed that dragon, one has become The Child.
Breaking out is following your bliss pattern, quitting the old place, starting your hero journey, following your bliss. You throw off yesterday as the snake sheds its skin.

Follow your bliss.
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-Joseph Cambell

Kayne West's New Blog

Kanye has a new blog up, So for all those who follow it, heres the link.

www.kanyewest.com,

Looong couple days....

boy am i tired, i have had the longest two days ever. Good days though Elaborate after i cover all the regular blog stuff.

Dual Message- J and B

Well im going to comment on two statements made by tow people today. You all knwo who you are, actually ,, you probably know who eachother are as well!

The nice guy prince charming trick:
Ok look, there are nice guys on earth, no doubt. and it is true that every guy can be the nice guy, if put in place with the right person.
The Counterfeit:
Well here we have a girl that just got out of relationship(open door). The guys walks in and is a friend to this girl. Now that the guy is in, he is really nice to her, and the girl is open, so she just spills out everything, she may cry, and she most likely will tell all, the good and the bad, and most times she will throw in all the things she wanted and didnt get out of the relationsip. Now the smart guy, wil then temporarily become this "prince charming" for the girl. He will for some reason, be all she ever dreamed of. Playing the rebound, is the easiest role ever, and the easiest way to a girls heart. Yes, i have seen it happen, and yes i have played this game. OK so, some say that im just mad that you are falling for this guy, but no. Im not, im being a friend, i know that youre over me, so, i mean, its not like i have anything to lose or gain from this advice. But like you told me.. "be careful", i know, im a guy, but im smart, i know my limit, and i know a green light, and i know a red light disguised as a green light. So i think im good, besides, until i find a real girl, im in kevins pool. But my advice to you, Be careful, looks can be deceiving. Like i know you are starting to really like him, i know he is really nice to you ,and it seems like he is always there. And just because, he'll drop anything to come sit and wioe your tears, does not make him prince charming.Be weary of the teenage male. And im sure youre being hit by a bunch of guys that have been trying for the past year to get in. From my personal observations over the year. i say that the ones that will on your penis. Mike, Branden, and Dmario. These three individuals will waste no time. I mean, you can tell me that bull about how Branden is your "brother", yeah right. He has been trying to have sex with you for forever. ANd i know that there has always been something there. Mike, he's "prince charming" right now. ANd Dmario, well i dont have a story about him.


Ok B your turn.

Ok, so... Crying at school again i see. Not becasue of something i did or didnt do. But now its the same thing as last year. Because of him. You said that you wanted to talk to me, but you werent sure if you should. So i brought you along with me and the guys as we did some shoe shopping. Cool. And on the ride, you talked to me, and told me pretty much everything. I was jokingly saying that you were "crying becasue he didnt want to talk to you", (low key that was half the truth),lol. But you said that you were crying becasue he said "that he had something to tell you, but didnt really want to say it, and you start making up stuff in your head about what it could be, you said that you thought he had fallen for someone else, and was going to break up with you. And while we sat in the mcdonalds parking lot, i told you that he wouldnt leave you. You asked how i knew, and i told you that i knew becasue i was a guy, i may not be the same guy, I may not look like him or have the same background, but i have a penis, im a teenager, and im in high school. A guy will never leave a guaranteed thing, for a "maybe". He wont leave you , for a girl that he is cheating on you with, unless she is like absolutely amazing. And i just cant see it happening. And as we sat in the nike factory, i looked at you and i saw you making that face you always make when you are holding something in, I grabbed your chin,and saw that your eyes were red. I told you exactly what i told vivian back when anthony use to make her cry all the time. I stared you in the eye, and said "you wont shed another tear over this guy,because the only guy worth your tears, wont make you cry". I wiped your eyes, then you smiled and stood up. Then you killed my niceness when you looked at me the way you did.And i had to go back to being normal. You looked at me like you do when you begin breaking rule #1. You doubt me. So i say " easier said than done?"... Yeah..lol. But itll be cool. I promise..

Good times with the guys...

The convos with the guys are cool. It seeems like everything is happpening.. all at the same time. One of us just got out of a relationship, one of us is stuck in a relationship, one of us is dating our mother, one of us is just living the high life, and the other one is in love with another girl other than his girlfriend...Whew...

I was just talking to matt the other day about how we were tired of easy girls. He feels my pain. HIs last girlfrie,d just through herself at him, and had sex with him in 2 days? Thats not the kind of girlfriend I want. If i never talk to you a day in my life, until one day you look decent, and you invite me to hang out. 9 times out of 10, i will send you off! Easy isnt really attractive to me, i had the perfect opportunity to do whatever i wanted with the easiest girl on earth, but I was not going. Like, ill talk to an easy girl. We can chill. But there is no way in hell, im having sex with you. Thats just not how it works. Like i always say, "i like my penis, id rather keep it... Clean"...

Then matt and I were discussing.. "wifeys"... Of course he had the usual comment about Bridgette calling her my girlfriend. He was saying "hmm, shes hot, keep her around, but if you dont want her, ill take her"... I say good luck, id never get serious with her anyway, she has a boyfriend and I know how she is. He says " o what does that mean, you cant take her from her boyfriend?".... No Matthew, if i wanted her, i could have her, and so could anyone else, not only that.. a very sneaky, manioulative, asian girl made one very true statement "if someone will cheat with you, they will cheat on you"... sad but true.... I know the stuff she has done, I could never get serious with a girl like that. She's all over the place.. I mean, yeah, my mother is all on her balls most days, and wants me to take her to prom. But like Silas and I was saying.. If i took her to prom, she'd be all over the prom. I cant be seen with someone like that. Please... But anywho.. back to girls these days.. If youre telling me that youre in love with me, after just chlling for a few weeks. That is a problem, yeah i know im the bestest and all, but come one now. How many times have you told how many people that you loved them. Defininte no no..

BUt despite common belief, I dont mess with easy girls, they do not appeal to me. My main man Kevin made a very interesting comment when he was high once. "girls these days are nasty". They really are, really nasty, and really horny. Im honestly afraid to stick my penis in anyone but Jade(i have my doubts about her sex partners, but still, i think she's a safe choice). But since that will probably never happen again, ill happily be celibate along with Kevo. So the rumors can go ahead, and circulate, and people can keep asking me questions. Ill gladly admit to what ive done. But at no point, will i say i did something that i didnt.