Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Its Jade!!!




Lol.. Its true.. when i think of some people, i immediately start smiling.... But 5 years later... When i think of you.. I laugh! I laugh for all those great times we had. The moments we shared that should have just been in a movie. or someone should have taken a picture. Oddly enough, we never did? lol. I planned to do this earlier, but i couldnt exactly figure out how I wanted to organize it. I didnt know if I wanted to go year by year, or just rant about it all... I decided to combine most methods!
7th grade, we didnt talk, i actually thought you were funny looking. darker than my usual type... But 8th grade, those pants drew me too you, but,the love was what kept me around. I always say, that back then love was blind... I usually say this jokingly... but its true.. lol. Lets not sugar coat.. but it was ok.. You were my baby. And i every minute of it was a pleasure. The days sitting up at the train station, our first kiss in the middle of your talking. Kiss in the elevator, think i still have that picture somewhere too..... Found it! we had i think 2 official break ups in 8th grade. Then another freshmen year. Thats when you started messing with branden. I remember you telling me that we had to stop talking because it wouldnt be fair to him. i believe thats when I got back with Diamond. But of course, by the end of the year, we had both sort of come to our senses. Then the summer came, we stoppped talking for some reason. Then sophmore year, you got in to that "committed" relationship with whatever his name is, lol. And i got back with Diamond.. We did start back talking though, the i love yous continued.. and so did those long kisses in the corners,lol. Im sure Ms Bedford got tired of seeing us on those stairs everyday! Junior year we hopped back into that relationship though. It was all good, fairytale. But then stories start arising about me and other girls, and i lost your trust forever. Without the trust.... We didnt have much, but we made it through a year and a couple months before we broke up for that little week. lol. It was good again for another week, then back to the regular old no trust relationship. What a pleasure! O i can forget the fact that i lost my virginity to you.. I remember that first time, we were on the little chair thing.. and the condom actually broke as I was putting it on, luckily, i wasnt inside of you long enough for me to even release my hand from my penis so it was all good! lol. I can still remember that moment now.. I'll never forget it. But back to the story. O no another sidetrack! I remember hat night in my room, we were just sitting around hanging out! and it was all good! My mother came in and gave the hint that it was time to leave, but that only prompted us to change positions. from the bed, to the chair, to the floor.. Memorable...i thought the relationship was looking up! But no..that wasnt enough.. jsut one night.. A week later we broke up for the final time...But when we first broke up, we were cool. still talking , laughing, kissing, just being David and Jade. But shortly after that, a rumor began spreading about me and Bridgette. We were just friends! No one quite understood that though. Not even her. But hey, its whatever.. I tried to force us back into a friendship. Id invite you over, hang with you! That eventually worked out! we were becoming the best of friends, back to david and jade.. All i really wanted, i just never wanted.. our relationship to change.. But then I remember this one day, i was being a retard, i guess testing the friendship.. I let her go through my phone.... Our relationship has never been the same. She wont admit it, but i swear since that day, everything went downhill. For one reason or another.

Shes moving on I think. Got herself a little guy friend. Its all cool though. You know. I remember recently, we were talking, and we start talking about the summer and what were going to do. I mentioned that i wanted to go from New york, to Atlanta and spend the rest of my summer there with a couple of my friends. She start going off on how im not a good friends, and how we wont talk anymore... I was like.."alrighty..You should have warned me".... But yeah, im tired so i will finish this up at a later date, Part 2 coming........ sooooooooooooon



I hate thirsty girls!

Have you ever met someone, and they seemed real cool> and they were pretty attractive to.. but then the were just too thirsty and it just turned you off.... Yeaaahhh>> I hate it. Text my phone 30 times a day, I may reply 5 times..Ask the same questions over and over again.. It gets old.. The most fun is always in the chase..And the destination feels so much better if you struggled on your journey!...

2 of 2: The best of times.. its your turn.

Saving the best for last... yeah i did!, lol. Im also probably going to have to do this in stages... I dont think i can sum up 5 years in one post, or even at one time... This will take a while... Honestly, i dont know how i want to do this.. i could go year by year, or i can just... rant... We will decide!

1 of 2: The Best of times..


Lol... even now, months later... when I look at this picture I cant help but smile a little bit. No matter how bad my day may be going, i could accidentally run past this picture looking for something else, and ill still... just smile. We had alot of good times! I must say. I can honestly say, i wont forget her. She isnt always on my mind, but every now and then, i still wonder what shes up to. I promised her mom that if her and I ever lost contact, and I'd still come up to her job and bring her some food every now and then. I definitely need to put that on my to do list for the summer.."Go see Bridgette's mom"..... Her mother reminded me so much of mine, and Bridgette reminded me so much of her mother... at first...
Yeah.. At first, then she just reminded me of someone i didn't want to associate myself with. I think she was sorry for what she did... I think we both were. I know she wanted to talk to me, she'd stand at our old mutual meeting place, id see her.. and just walk by without saying a word, but i could see her smile and her eyes following me from the corner of my eye...Best of times, there were the worst of times... Maybe they'll be more? I hear she's gay/bi/ or experimenting nowadays.. I knew she'd eventually come out. (inside joke)... lol. but even though i don't plan on communicating with her anymore, i wish her luck in her future endeavors. I promised her that i help get her into Spelman, but... i think she could do it on her own. And her public defense lawyer career..."Well i know youre not doing it for the money".. thats what id always say when she spoke about it... But yeah.. good luck with that. And after writing all this... I laugh... Because that was just the intro, i havent even gotten to the point yet.. The "Best of time".. but here it is..


I feel that the purest and most genuine time in a relationship, are the first...The first time you make eye contact,the first conversation, The first hug, the first time you screamed into the pillow that you loved me, when you didnt know i was in the room. lol, the first time you cried,the first time i comforted you, the first time i wiped your tears away, the first time i was in a car accident with you because you though it'd be ok to....(well im not going to put that out there, ill let everyone think the worst and use their imagination). The first time we watched your favorite movie and you covered your eyes on the sex scenes,lol. The first time you balled up in my front seat and told me about your dreams and fantasies. The first time i took you to one of my meetings, the first time i took you to church and you got interrogated by a couple of mentors, but held your own... The first time we went shopping together.The first time you fell inyo my arms on the ciuch while we watched the bad girls club, the first time your little brother stlked us while we were in your room, not even on anything. The first time you got really mad at me,and stayed mad at me for like 2 weeks, but still called me every night,silent... just to listen to me talk to you for hours,about nothing... The first time you cursed at me, the fist time you called your mother my in-law and it took me forever to catch on to who you were talking about. The first time you laid on my bed,looked at the collage,and thought you looked like Meagan Good( wrong!).. You actually look more like a Zoe Saldana..But... the first time we said goodbye... All these first, brings us to where we are today. And it all... still makes me smile.. These first are the best times Ive had with you.

I always say that Drake is my favorite music artist because i can relate to at least one line out of each of his songs, or there is always a line that makes me go "wow"...

"All and all I learned a lesson from it though,
you never see it coming,
you just get to see it GO!"
-Drake, "Fireworks"

Hmmm.. took the words right out of my mouth...

Best of times... oops


Well i kind of feel bad for only doing two entries for the best of times... Ooops, but im going to do the two i promised before. Then maybe a couple more, but definaitely the two i was supposed to do on graduation. Their coming soon.

Travel time with my Angels!



Soooo, already knew i was going to new york this summer,but last week, i was invited to spend the summer with one of my friends in Atlanta at her sisters house! Sounds good to me! No such thing as a boring time when I'm with these people! And then if Scar or Amandie comes too, it'd be 10 times better. (For low key obvious reasons) But yeah.. School is looking up, im pumped, and ready to enjoy this last summer before grind time. now i have a scholarship to maintain.. a little more pressure.. but its nothing. I can do it.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Just a little tip for the future...


Quote of the Day


Skittles Fizzled Fruits....The nastiest Skittles ever


So im going to just put it out there.... These skittles are disgusting... as always i looked at the package and just knew theyd be great... so i ripped open the package... poured a bunch into my hand... start chewing..... then for the first time... I spit them all out!!

I mean dont get me wrong, the flavors are great.. but its just too much going on in my mouth.. I couldnt handle all of that. YOu welcome GHB. Enjoy those!

Troubles- Greg Burton aka Dre Valentine



Why the fuck is life so hard it nothing but confusing
Everytime you think you're winnin it turns out that you're losing
It's hard to move on when you are not even moving
I'm still in love with her and she knows this, she just hasn't noticed
Man, she was the closest to my heart
I swear i would love to have you again if there was a button to restart
We was it, we were magic and it was amazing how it had happened
You fell for me as soon as you found out that I can speak Spanish
Love alive is incredible but when it dies it's tragic
Words can't explain after it all how my heart was in damage
I think I caught some feelings I didn't even plan on catching
Hearts break and i was on a collision course, I didn't plan on crashing
And Drew and Pierre told me the shid wouldn't last
I knew they were right but I just played it off with a laugh
They say the truth hurts, especially the aftermath
How can you go forward with when your life was is the past.

It's crazy, many people ain't in the position Im in
Who else can say that they met Kanye West when they were 10
Or that he's cool with my family and my cousins best friend
I'm trying to put GQ on cause I know we the best men
Gentlemen Quailty, don't act like you don't know
I told Daniel it's time for me and the studio
To get better acquainted,I know that imma make it
Don't lose first place position, because I'm going to take it
It's funny how life can change especially in a week or two
I found out a girl I used to mess with talks to one of my dudes
Or maybe not, I guess that facebook got me confused
Either way I ain't mad from time to time I do think about you
And yesterday she messaged said she had a dream I hated her
Even tho its not true I didn't know what to say to her
Because lately, I can hardly express how I feel
And I keep getting hit by questions about how I'm real
I know that mothers trip but mines is falling off
It's like she don't love me now because never even talk
And I hate when people tell me maybe she's going through some things
Ain't shid she can go through with no concern for me
And my brother too, I hate that he's the young one
Because he finally gets his chance to grow up
Its gonna be hard now He's got a family to hold up
I'm just trying to be there as he gets older
S Dot said it's funny how women complain about all of these niggas
But how quickly they will chnage for one of these niggas
And how you tell all of these girls that you not the same
But what good will that do because they all just playing games like you an ordinary nigga
Please don't confuse me with them, remember that I said it
Cause Im all about my green just like a Boston Celtic
Nobody likes a show off but I can't help it
It's hard not to when you know everything you do is perfected
Why do I write these songs I always ask myself that question
About all of the things that I know and all of the women I mess with
I'm not scared that they'll find out I ain't got nothing to hide
Maybe I need to start keeping all of my feelings aside
Maybe I need to see I psychologist to talk to about my life
Essence found a gray hair in my hair so something just ain't right
I thought about this today I swear it feels kind of odd
How I go to church every Sunday but never talked to god
I hate to tell the truth, but people around me lying
I hope it ain't just me, but I'm scared to death of dying
I wish I could put everything I feel in a song
So you can feel how real I am in this song
And I thought that one friends passed away but I was wrong
But it just showed me how life and the people need to be cherished
This girl said she'll love me forever Ive heard that so many times
But I guess this time she means it, when will I get it right
She a diamond and she knows this, or she should
I'm just trying to live right and do everything that's good
It always feels like Noelle is the women that understands me
I know I can tell her everything I choose not to because I know her
And every time I think of her, I miss her, but she's just like me
Looking for the one but not for certain and I tell her that it's me
But she older 21 to be exact and man
I swear one I thought she died I haven't felt the same again
So if you reading this, just know that I care for you
I think you be on games with me, but,guess that's the cost to be with you
And my cousin told one day don't let the fame change me
Just let the money come in and always stay the same me
I'm the same, but so many I know that I barely talk to at all
Always tells me that I've changed
I'm trying to see if there's something I'm missing
I always thought it was just me being different
I never was a person to hear suggestions and listen
I'm not trying to fit in, I swear that I don't get it
Theres alot of girls that I'm attracted to and they feel it too
I'm sure that they see I'm not like any other dude
I'm not looking for love and rarely do I fall in it
I got alot of money I just hope I don't spend all of it
It's just me, Domo, S Dot, and Mike like the four brothers but
Sometimes I feel like there's no others like us
And Nobody understands each other like us
We don't love these girls and never do we trust
Yeah, nothing is really a surprise to me
And man, I don't know where my mind is I'm not even trying to find it
I'm just thinking about making it big and make of my ex's mad
Know need to say it, I was the best you ever had
My dad told me this year that he needs me to be successful
Give me some liquor so I can wash away all that's regretful
I just need some closure
I started so imma finish, I'm in it till it's over



Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Scarlett Harris


Yeah i pulled out a throw back! Super cool, extemely real, funny.. its been a pleasure... The crazy things we've done! Unforgettable... And you know we'll be laughing and talking about it for many years to come. Youre coming to New York with me this summer!You think im kidding, im so serious, its always a party when we're together, i know that it wont change. We barely talked talked before this year... Actually, it was mostly a hi.. bye.. I had the biggest crush on you back in the academic center, lol, but its nice to sit around with tarik and laugh about that stuff now. Youve been a good friend. And youre going to keep in touch. Because I said so.. You, Me, Jenn, Brandon, "Warm nights and cold patron"... But you know we always just let you all drink, and we jsut talk and comment on you all's alcoholism. But of course sometimes Brandon joins in for a shot or two.. But either way... We always have something to talk about in the morning....or when we wake up.... You never know! And thats all good with me.... See you later!

Briana Rice


Alright Briana!!! So ive known you since 7th grade and since then, uo until this year, im sure we both had our prejudgments of each other. But Everyday 4th period was a joy becasue of you and Silo. He's crazy, and you jsut balance it out with the realness. Kubey hated us all collectively! And it was a pleasure to share his hate with you.Although that night when i was following you was less than pleasing, you definitely made up for it, with your thoughts and knowledge,and the laughs you gave me! See you later. Ive had a good time.. Hopefully many more to come... Minnue the wasting of gas of course!

Theres no time!!


Ok so i just realized something... i wont have any time to make those Best of times on graduation day!.. SO i must start today!! i must!

So far gone...


Sitting at school with the girls... Just talking and laughing as usual... And you walked by and Scar said "you guys love girls who can sing, brandon, erica, you, jade".. I just laughed and said"naw bandon and erica are riding it out, but jade and I are dead, so far gone, shes gone with the wind, we've moved on, so you have to use past tense when needed."... But she caught me, she stared into my eyes, and disregarded every piece of bull that flowed out of my mouth inmy last statement... She said " dont bullshit me, i see the way you look at her, you loved her, and you still do".. She knew that i knew, that she knew the truth,lol. And so she cut her lecture and started joking around... "so do you remember the last time you hit that, yeah i bet you do,and youre not getting any still! And you wont even fuck you know who,you waiting for that shit man,dont wait too long, you'll end up dry for the rest of your life, hahaha"... She was joking.. I think.. but she was still right on...

Have you ever had those dick riders that are so thirsty, but no matter who they are, and how sexually appealing they are, you still in your head say "haha, thirst bucket fall back"... Then the guys would joke and say "if it wasnt for brett, you'd win the driest dick award"... Im voluntarily dry...so I dont even count!... But its cool though..... I just deleted a page worth of words from this post.. Think ill save that for my yearbook entry... Hope you saved me a page or two... Probably didnt even consider it...But as we move on... Be careful ( dont let those words scare you)... It was advise, not a warning.. Some people get it confused. Best of times Coming soon, yours may interest you... June 15th, a great day, Thank me later, Graduation, "Best of Times"...

.A little work, a little sleep, a little love, then it's all over....

So why this guy?


Today i was talking to someone and they asked who my favorite artist were. Easily, i blurted drake, then jay Z and Kanye following. HE criticized my first choice saying "Drake! he just came out, he's way over rated, why is he your favorite"... At that time, i wasnt interested in a debate, so i just simpliy said.. " He's a talented artist with great lyrics for all kinds of listeners... But if i was in the mood for it, i would have said...

Drake is not only a talented rapper, a talented singer, and lyricist, and he obviously knows how to build a great team, seeing how he did what he did, with his team on his side, without a big label contract backing him... Name someone else who did it....You can think for hours, you wont find anyone. He went from being a backpack rapper, to a household name almost over night, and he's still semi humble. You realy cant blame him for being a little cocky, he deserves the right. And he is also my favorite artist because he is the only artist, who in every single song i hear from them, i can either relate.. or im saying... "Man", then immediately put it on repeat... I think i listened to Fireworks (which is number 1 on his upcoming album, im buying 2 copies you should do the same) at least 30 times literally before i even made it to number 2.. them, i maybe listened to Karaoke(track 2) twice as much....If it wasnt for the singles that he released that i had already heard a million times, id probably still be on track 7(Unforgettable ft Jeezy)... Thats good music. Honestly i sort of feel like he should be under a new label like Roc Nation or GOOD. But then again, i dont think he will have the ability to make people rock to his music the way he does, if he wasn't under the leadership of Lil Wayne, who is a genius in his own right.

People always say "that album is weak, no where near so far gone quality".. Well yeah maybe not. But i know that i didn't have every song on repeat like i do Thank Me Later. I personally think that he just set the bar extremely high for him self when So far gone released. It was like when a unknown boxer just comes out of no where and does a TKO on a Championship fighter. Totally unexpected...

Another thing i like about this guys music, not only do you not know what you're going to get with the coming of each line.. But then the honesty in his lyrics. He isnt one of those rappers that like grew up in agated community and you always hear them rapping about how hard their life was on the streets! What?!. He speaked the truth. Back when he released Comeback Season, he wasnt afraid to talk about how he was broke, with a rolls royce. Or when he released so far gone, he talked about how he was making a come up and "getting rich twice".. Or with Thank me later, when on alot of the tracks, he talks about that girl that left him because of his fame. karaoke... In the song he talks about how at the time he chose his career over her, and she left, and he wants to go back for her, but doesnt have time, and even if he did, she wouldnt care, because she doesnt want to be with a celeb.

Every song on this album, i just sit back and think.. "Well doesnt that sound familiar".. Amazing... Well Sir, this is why he is my favorite... Can you say the same about Mr. J. Moss?.. No No you cant, i can hear him lying and saying that he can relate to atleast one part of every song by him. .. pathetic church folk..

Monday, June 7, 2010

Memories....


So my last day of classes at Kenwood Academy has made me decide.... that im going to do the "best of times" on the day of graduation. On this day, ill post the best of times that ive had with... everyone i can think of! lol.. Cant wait to see how this turns out! For some.. its going to be pretty hard to decide!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

memo,

Ok so with these memories, i want to post a picture of that person, or something that sort of symbolizes them,or a certain time... but with this girl... I am currently lacking pictures of. Mainly because they were taken on my camera, which had a memory card... I took this memory card out of my camera, to use in my phone to store music.... my phone was stolen today which still obtained the memory card.. So bye bye phone, with the pictures. Lol. So the pictures that we sat around and took being goofy, or just chillin, are gone. Now dont get me wrong, i have a few still, the ones i took on my iphone. Some are unobtainable at the moment, others i just would post on te internet, and that leaves me with like 2,lol... But enough about those pics..lets get to the flashback..
Ok... whew.. I remember this day like it was.... Yesterday....

It was Thursday or friday (guess i dont remmber it that well)... I saw her after school everyday... on my way to my car which was parked in the back lot. I dont know if she was waiting for me or if she was just there, but everyday... She'd be standing right there.. As usual we stopped, talked for a minute,although we would start getting into a deep random conversation, then something came up, either i had someplace to be, or she did.. I usually offered to take her home after her practice(knowing her, she would say no, which worked for me), as expected..at first she declined, but then the no thanks became yess(which was cool with me too, a little extra miles wouldnt kill me).. but this particular day, she declined, she said that she'd just go home on her own.. "ok cool, well just call me and let me know that you made it in safely", I started walking away, but she never let me leave without a hug, haha.. So she gets what she wants and we go our seperate ways, then fast forward... I get a call from a random number that night, i answer, i got in the habit of answering random numbers, lol.. When i answered it was her.. Crying.. "Bridgette? Whats wrong? Where are you"... "well i took the bus home, and i forgot that i had given my key to Isiah because he lost his, so i wen tall the way home, and i didnt have a key to get in the house, and no one was home, so i had to take the bus all the way back to my moms job"..So in my head, im dying laughing, this girl is seriously sitting here crying her eyes, out because some things werent going her way, in life.. But i didn't say anything at that time..I just did what i always did, just be david. " Are you ok? You want me to come get you?.. No, im ok, my moms about to get off, ill just ride with her.. "you sure? if i leave the house now, i can be there in like 10 minutes".. No its ok, im fine.. "alright Bridgette, suit yourself".. Wait.. i shoudl be leaving here soon, and i really dont want to be in the house, so can you come get me when i get there... "lol, yeah i thought so! But of course, just call me when you get in the house"..Then i finally get a giggle out of her.. But like 30 minutes later she called me to tell me she was home,and i got up to go get her.. She got in the car, eyes bloodshot red, but still smiling.. We pull off.. "so whats your favorite ice cream flavor?" .. Strawberry, why?.. "Because we're going to get you some ice cream" .... How'd you know i wanted some ice cream.. " I didnt, but ice cream is suppossed to make everyone feel better".. So we went to get some coldstones ice cream, despite her wishes for oberweiss..So we get that, then go to target so i can pick up something, then we just start driving west.. We end up at chicago ridge mall, We started to go catch a movie, but we ended up just getting out the car and sitting on the hood, while im drinking my shake.. im wondering why shes just sitting there playing with the ice cream.. "Why arent you eating that?.. Coldstones is nasty, it doesnt have any flavor..."LOL, why didnt you tell me that before we went to coldstones" I tried, but you insisted coldstones, and i didnt want to send you all over the place wasting gas.. "Bridgette, we passed oberweiss twice,lol, you should have said something, and i think their still open, lets go get you some ice cream youll eat".. NO! i dont want to leave.. "why? were over here to get you some ice cream, it would suck if you dont even eat it".. I just dont want to move, im comfortable.."alright suit yourself"... So we both agree, that we'll go in and check the movie times in 15 minutes.. 15 minutes turned in to 30.. 30 to 45,,, 45 to an hour.. then eventually an hour turned to 3... 3 hours later, by this time we are back sitting in the car, becasue its still winter outside, but we're still talking and laughing... asking questions..Time was flying, next thing you know, 1am... the parking lot is basically clear..and were just sitting there. But I insist that we continue talking as i take her home, she agrees.. Now if youve ever been in oak lawn, at 1am, you know that the streets are empty,and it seems like all the lights are green. So i thought i was just cruising, but on an empty stret, whie crusing you can still gain speed becasue you have no barriers.. so before you know it im cruising going 50mph.. and suburban police have no life, so we get pulled over... Luckily, i throw on the educated black guy voice, and after checking my info, he gives us a warning and lets us go... But on the way home from that, i ask her a question that had been lingering in my mind.. "why didnt you let me take you home after practice, you know none of this would have happened if i would have"...Yeah, maybe not, but i didnt want to start depending on you to do that, because i have a boyfriend, and i cant just depend on you to be there, becasue one day you may not be. "Dont worry about it, i got you, im a pretty giving guy, ill do what i can".. I know, and everythign about this day wasnt bad..all that stuff happened, and in the end i got to spend the night with you.. "Lol, yeah i guess"... By this time, we're pulling up in frnt of her house.. I get out, walk her to the door as usual, then go on my merry way... It was a good day, i learned about her this day... Yepp

The End...

Memories....


So yeah, its coming to a close... you work a bit, laugh a bit, love a bit, then its all over...
Ok so yeah, you say that you wont stop talking to me but..lets be real, i wasnt the best thing that ever happened to you, and im not going to be one of those things youre too eager to remember.. I can see you walking further and further away as the days past... So these memories will be it..

But i remember that time they sent Jade and I to get the pizza. Which we did. We went straight there. But then on the way back... Well we took a detour.. actually not really, we were sitting outside the house for like an hour.. but to make a long story short, by the time we got in the house, the food was cold, and the people were angry.... And all we did was look confused, and laugh... Now that's a throw back!

Coming Soon.....Memories....


With my last day of classes for my high school career is tomorrow, its only right that i throw some more memories out there...

Today... A good day in disquise..


Sprung ankle... got sick.... got phone stolen... Best 24 hours of my life by far....